U pulled the wrong plug honey and no, it does not turn me on...

Yeah! everyone has something to talk about 2010. The resolutions and all... :) I have none... I think age does that to u... *Looks in Ramit's direction for approval* Donno if it's called being wiser or what... but now I know what I can and what I can't accomplish.I don't have resolutions anymore, I have dreams... even now. Dreams, I will fulfill one by one. After a long struggle, I have realized being nice is not nice anymore but then, I cant help but be nice to whoever I want to be nice with :P Bole toh, Dil saala maanta hi nahi ;) ;) Someone wants me to be like THIS and Someone wants me to be like THAT. Things that never happened when I was a teenager are happening now and I kinda am not used to it.If you restrict me, try to lock me in or try to own me -- I have only one option-- to free myself and run away. I donno how and when, but I sure will run away. I am struggling to get the shaadi-crap in my head but somehow my mind rejects it so I have given up on feeding the shaadi-dose to my already messed up brain... I have seen people judging me for what I say, what I write. Frankly, I dont care if you think am Unhappy, if that makes u happy... then be it.. :) I am all for happiness of other people.If you think am pretentious, I should thank you for finally recognising me...Wow! no one cud be so smart haan... :) What amazes me is that people form a certain perception about you and then everything you do or say is linked to the perception and then relationships just go haywire. Knowing someone is not about judging someone(like me and Mads discussed kal, she is one gal u can have an intelligent conv with) but then knowing someone is a tough job too. I offer my sympathies to people who did try knowing me but ended up judging me. Anyways, point is if you can understand the messed-up head writing this post, we are good. and in case you can't then I am good even if you are not. I feel like cutting off for some time from everyone... who keeps on judging me... expecting things from me...or whoever knows me a lil bit. No, I am not depressed and not on pills... LOL!! I am just going thru a phase where you are simply bored of all the cliche stuff around you and you shout out to the man up there "Gimme something new yaar coz I have seen a lot of such shit already". I sometimes end up feeling am not a good daughter coz my folks want me to get married and I just dont want to. I am not halting their efforts but then am not helping them either. Sometimes people term my attitude as fiery ( I remember someone sent me this friend request on a social site and it read ~~ to the fiery blogger) LOL!! and if some fail to understand it all, they wud say fine u have a short temper... and all. I am like, see... I dont find faults in you, so please stop wasting your time, finding faults in me. Yeah! I am completely aware that I am not good. I mean, I know that sometimes people around me end up telling me that am God's biggest mistake :P but I kinda am done with this shit. If you cant handle me... then leave me at the mercy of watever or else live with it. :) I know this post feels like some bitch just threw up the venom on your screen but then I am allowed to act like one on some days in a year... Every person deserves it. About why am like that today.. stop scratching ur heads.. its not PMS.. for a change. its just tht, I never said I will write posts to make anyone happy... I never promised.. so this one is for me.. if its not for all of my readers who are right now under a shocking spell... Chill.. Guys.. ;) am just cool but I wanted to say what I wanted to... and if by any chance u r still reading this shit... Wish u a happy new year... ;) Love ya... Do sign for Ruchika here : PETITION ONLINE