Sunday Night Horror

I was the third person to reach the room and all I could see for a moment was blood..too much of it, and then I saw him, shivering and mumbling "Maa". It is difficult in THAT moment, to decide, to think or to even move. One of us yelled for Savlon, One of us got the car out and One of us picked him up and dragged him to the chair nearby. The dogs were all over him, licking him, trying to do all they could to ensure he is alright.

My brother had his umpteenth Epilepsy attack yesterday. After losing a lot of blood, 17 stitches on his forehead/right eye and 4 injections.. he is a little better. He has been an epileptic for past 17 years and this is his second hospital visit in a year.

I can never be HIM, ever. I hope his courage stays the same. To live with the fact that you are dependent on people and you may fall, hurt or collapse anywhere...and yet smile and take it all so casually. I don't know many people who can do THAT.

Pray for him to heal sooner, coz your prayers always work.

Donno why, but life has been a little weird off-late. First Dad and now bhai...Nothing breaks you more than watching your loved ones suffer. 

Sometimes, I don't want to be the strong one. I want to be the one who screams, when it pains...who cries hard, when it hurts...without being responsible for everything and everyone. 

Mast raho, Dilchasp Raho!!  

coz some people in my life, live this mantra everyday and inspire me.

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Honey! I dumped you on FB.

Welcome to the FB/twitter generation wherein it is so easy to say it all while hiding behind a computer/phone screen.

Earlier, I used to find this whole thing stupid and funny. Now, as I read about it day after day, in papers, on websites; this whole "Taking your relationship to social networks" sounds utterly scary. I mean people are killing themselves over this!

This whole phenomenon of social networks is making us  insensitive towards others, ignorant of our own feelings, cowards and emotionally empty. 

Breaking-up on FB/twitter/blogs/texts saves you the trouble of addressing your and your partner's feelings. You can easily hide your cowardice behind flashy status messages like "Hey! I am back to the grind" or "Singledom rocks!!"... OR the simplest of all is Changing your relationship status to let the world and the person involved know that it is over for good.

Okay! Now I find it a little funny :) How kiddish! *laughs* 

Slowly and gradually, we are losing our grip on life and relationships because everyone wants virtual validation, wants to be the one with the most followers or most number of FB friends. A lot has been written about it already.. Ironically, I am writing this too on a Social Network and unintentionally seeking validation or criticism in the "Comments" section.

Thanks to Social-Networks, the men are not MAN enough to take a stand and the women are not sensitive enough to talk it out. Friendships, Relationships ... all of them are falling apart and are at the mercy of a status message or a tweet. 

I'd rather spare some time later, to write about Social Networks. For now, an article in a paper as to "How to break-up ONLINE?" triggered these thoughts in my head, so I shared.

What's your take on it? Are you brave or humane enough to talk it out with someone in-person or you prefer the coward's way out of relationships?

Sorry, if somebody got hurt while reading the post(like fell off a chair or banged their head on their desks).This is entirely my opinion, people should talk TO people and not ABOUT them... things will become simpler :)

Mast raho, Dilchasp raho!!

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Pyaar ka PUNCH-naama!!

Everyone who asks "What is love?" and looks zara-bahut bhi human, should be hit with a flashlight on his/her head. I find this question utterly stupid. I want to just roll my eyes at them and ask "Dude, your mother threw in the dustbin or what? Why do you think you are here, in this world?".

It is funny how everyone is so busy defining love or finding the relevant definitions for love, that they have forgotten 'LOVE' itself :) Interesting set of people. I have come across a different set of people in the past few years. I thought why not categorize them to make it simpler for my coming generations :

1. The "Love is Bullshit" category : This is some new disease that has spread across the X and Y generations. This category includes some wannabe-cool,  some newly heartbroken and some always been ignored kinds. The one in this category secretly wants to be loved and cared for, can't express coz the one who believes in love is supposed to be uncool, thinks "being cold" is IN. Makes fun of couples, try to seek attention by trashing their friends who are in love. 

2. The "I am not capable of love" category : This is a "Play Safe" category of people. They WANT to be loved, taken care of and want someone to treat them like a king/queen, but they WILL never commit to their love or a relationship coz again, it is uncool to love,they want to have all the fun in the world without any guilt or sense of responsibility and always want to stay SINGLE :P

3. The "I will never love again" category : This is a "Pyaar ke maare" special category. They dare to love, dare to be vulnerable and someone breaks their hearts so bad that they decide to steer clear of love. This category generally comprises of people with Irreversibly damaged hearts. They go on hurting a couple people after their unsuccessful stint with love and eventually find someone to hold on to later.

4. The "I believe in love no matter what" category : This category comprises of either the ones with successful love-stories or the ones who sleep with a Mills & Boons under their pillows. Most of the times, they do not let anything shake their faith in love. They say love beyond owning someone and also beyond a gal-guy thing. 

5. The "I am in love and FB should know" category : This category comprises of the people who post "I love you, jaan" on their lovers' FB walls and post amazing pictures of their love, promoting the world famous "Chipko Movement".:P

As for me, I have been in most of these categories except the 5th one, at some or the other time in my life.

Aapki category kya hain bhayee? Please feel free to add new categories to this post.

Baaki.. Mast raho, Dilchasp raho!!

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Vodka Bytes : 15.01.2012

Alcohol and me, we never gel well. It either makes me too sad...or too ignorant to notice. I share a love-hate relationship with alcohol. 

I am high right now and so many random things are on my mind. I am not happy, but I am not sad either. My Reiki-master told me this thing.."You give way too much and you close the doors when it's time to take.Accept love, happiness and all that comes your way". OMG!! wait a minute.. he also said that one should not indulge in alcohol and drugs.. Oopsie!! :s :P 

Koi ni.. chalta hain... :)

So the thing is... I think he is right.. Acceptance is important and so is 'taking', because no matter what, someday everyone gets tired of giving and there is exhaustion and bitterness. We hide it behind our smiles and "I am fine"s.. but the truth is not what we show.

I have so much to say, to so many people...but most of them don't deserve to know... and those who do, already know...toh Chaddo...

Anyways, that's about it... aurrrr 'Drink' if you are keen on it, but then ask a friend to drop u home...Don't drink n drive. 

Mast Raho, Dilchasp Raho!!:)

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Survive the lows, Live the highs.

"When you hit rock bottom, the only way is up" -- This is my favorite quote of all times. This is ME, today.

Got another news that makes everything worst again...Will I give up? Ummm.. I donno. 

I won't keep that option open at all..Nope.

The person who broke the news to me, asked me too many times to react. I just smiled and said, "I have nothing to say. It's okay". Inside, It is like a lull...like everything has stopped for me. I have no clue what to say. I guess this time, I will keep it all within me, for now.

I guess there is no point regretting all that happened, I'd rather work towards fixing it all up in such a way, that people forget how it was like when I was beaten to the ground. I think...yep! that's what I am gonna do...

Let them know, I AM BACK... and this time, I am unbeatable...I am unbreakable... 

Coz this is me..surviving every low with a smile, and living every high with a roaring laughter... :P

Mast raho, Dilchasp raho!! kyunki filhaal ke liye, roney ka koi faayda nahi... :)

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Hey gal! You complete him...You complete you.

"A man needs a woman to complete him" -- When I overheard my Dad saying this to his cousin ,I ran to straight to him and gave him a biiiiiiiig hug. I felt so proud of my old-man... :)

Ofcourse, most of the people may think of me a sexist or this statement as biased...Well, my Dad's cousin did. A man of few words, My dad did not care to justify himself...so I pitched in. 

I think what he meant by this is : a man, when he is a child, needs a mother to nurture him, introduce him to unconditional love and this beautiful life.He does need a sister in his growing up years to understand emotions, sharing, tolerance, inner strength and sensitivity much better.Later in his life, a gf or wife steps in...she is a mother, a sister, a friend and a lover...rolled into one.

Another wonderful woman enters his life, when he is blessed with a daughter.. and he learns sacrifice, fear, compassion...and love once again...

I do think a woman completes a man... My dad said THAT coz I know he loves his woman a lot.. and he saw this woman stand next to him through his crisis, telling him not to give-up ever. Coz she loves him despite his bald-self, his bad temper and  his toothless smile ;)

Men are awesome, no doubt... and I simply adore the ones in my life.. but I see them as kids who always need love, nurturing and a woman who can give them all... It does not make them weak or anything, it just reflects the wonderful dynamics God created here.

Ab iss baat pe, ladne mat lag jaana... Mast raho, Dilchasp raho!! ;)

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Change hain kya?

I am glad things don't stay the same. I am happy that things change and nothing stays permanent. 

How would life be if all days would have been gloomy, like the past few ones.. or if every day was about smiles and happy news? Umm... it would have been too mundane.

Everything fades away. Be it pain, Be it scars or bad memories... Slowly and gradually, it all becomes like that old box of greeting cards that you open once in a year, while you clean your closet. You live those memories for a couple of minutes and then you carry on with your life. 

I love THIS about life. How, it has something new to offer every day? I DO mind the lows it offers.. but then for every low, there is a high... I think it is all balanced somehow.

Isn't it?

Also...Rust-Oh-Gee (Arpit)! I am okay. All my lows are temporary..I write it out.. I get over it. I take things to heart when it comes to people I love...but then, like everyone else, I take my time and get over things.

Mast raho, Dilchasp raho!! ;)

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Rape Me, my friend.

Kurt Cobain is my God of darkness. His God is gay.

He might have been where I am today.. where you might have been some day... but he did not sit back, he made a song out of it... ;)

This song is his "Fuck You" to the world.. or may be his sarcastic "Thank you" to the souls who left him with a hole.

Whatever may be the case, this is the song of the moment... this is the song I am in love with for years now... 

Rape me, Rape me, my friend
Rape me, Rape me, again
I am not the only one
Hate me!
Do it and do it again
Waste me!
Rape me, my friend
My favorite inside source
I'll kiss your open sores
Appreciate your concern
You'll always stink and burn

Here is the link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=csEtzhVl-bQ

Mast raho, Dilchasp raho ;)

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Thank you.

Last two weeks have been nothing short of a nightmare. Dad in hospital. Crisis at work. Personal life gone for toss. Friends turning their backs. 

Glad, some people stood by me and helped me sail through these tough times. Thank you everyone, for praying. Dad is better. He will take another 2-3 months to get back to normalcy, but the doctors are confident that if he follows a healthy lifestyle and takes his illness seriously, he will be the same Angry old man, that I love.

These 20 days made me see life closely. The people I expected to stand by me, preferred celebrations over friendship. 

Of course, I don't expect everyone to stop living their lives, coz mine is not in order. But, there are people who claim to be your friends and when you need them the most, they disappear. The true friends stayed. A big thank-you to them. Thanks for hearing me out even when I said the same thing 100 times and telling me it's gonna be alright.

I will always be thankful to everyone who stood by me during this phase. For those who didn't, a heartfelt thanks to you too... I know the 'real' you now...and will never make the mistake of trusting you. I am a little bitter inside you know.

Point is, my dad is better...but I almost lost my job, my faith in humanity and God, and some part of me.

I will complain and crib about usual life later. For now, I am just thankful... VERY THANKFUL...

Mast raho, Dilchasp raho... Life kitte bhi jootey maarey, tum zabardast raho ;)

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