UK Diaries - Oct 30- From Office

10:00 am office desk- I donno why it is difficult for me to act like a bitch.. I had decided last nite itself that I am not going to help her... but then... Dear God, I cannot cheat you... right.. I cannot cheat myself...so finally I helped her I think it is not abt if I like her or not.. its abt that she needs help and I shud help her... coz not doing that is completely against my nature. So finally I have found a room for her in my aparthotel... and then I think abt it.. I dont even dislike her.. just that I am not comfy with the gang she brings along.. anyways... I feel lighter... deceiving is just not my cuip of tea I think... So finally after much struggle inside me... I helped her... aah! relieved... Damn! I always miss a chance to be a bitch.. grrrr... chalo dekho...may be next time I can be nasty to someone and just do bad to them... Being Sainty gets boring at times... :) 12:00 pm : This Friday has started on a very lazy note.. but then it is shaping up well enuff.. I am planning to leave by 4 today.. May be catch up on some romachik flicks...or just hang around the city square and click form pics... but then it rains every friday,sat and sunday... Weather is suffering frm serious mood swings, I must say. 3:00 pm And here I am, its 3 pm and everybody is just waiting for the clock to shout out 4 pm and they will start running out of the office... I find it so strange that every monday, I feel why its not weekend anymore... and every weekend I wonder, why is it so lonely and why is it not a working day anymore... I think its just that, I am being too demanding. :) But then, who cares... ;) The server is suddenly down, I think it went off to party with other server-log coz its a friday and has a fake that pretends to be down.. See, my mind is running full-time and I am so gud at writing shit/bakwaas as u call it that I shud be awarded for the same. :D :D Anyways... there is this old guy in office.. let us call him G, he is so cute.. everyday I make sure that I say hello to him coz he makes that cute face when I walk upto him and says... "Harsheeeeeta what have i done to upset you NOW?"...haha... coz he is the trouble fixer for our technical issues... so he always says that I bring along trouble and when I smile he is sure, something is really fishy with the server. :P I love this guy, he has so much positive energy even at this age. :) Everyone is office thinks why do I eat alone at my desk, why I dont go out on coffee breaks, why do I plug in my earfones and work all the time. Well, my funda is... Do your work and Do it well and then go home... I dont have time for gossip...(yeah! I am lying, I do gossip with my friend in the train) but then, I think I dont want to hang around with these people who just pretend so much abt money and status. I am happy being me.. who loves to eat on roadside dhabas... who still gorges on Golgappas more than anything... :D I hate Pizzas... I really do...and I am allergic to burgers... One sight of them and u can find me running... so if u wanna woo me, paanipuri is my thing. :P Is-sey pata chalta hain, ki I talk so much... I started with something else... and now I really donno what I was talking abt. Me too looking at my watch and waiting for 4 pm... Have a gr8 time guys.. :) Life indeed is beautiful.. and dont ask me why I said tht... aivayee... Before I sign off.. I found out the reason for stomach problem.. DAMN Olive Oil... I did not realise I was cooking food in olive oil.. I am allergic to Olives as in allergic... :P :P Main kamaal hun waisey...hehehe Have a mast weekend.

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UK Diaries - Oct 29 - From office

Last nite I tried sleeping early coz I promised myself that I will get up by 5:30 and relax a bit... coz the food am eating here and my eating habits are causing worry to my stomach... so to avoid all those acidity pangs.. I thought lets get up in time.. and drink loads of hot water... :) One thing I dont understand is... it is so cold.. and then my room heater is at 22 deg and even then I feel so hot at one point that I have to make it to 17.. I think the heater is a cheater... :D it shows something else and it does something else altogether. Anyways so I got up at 5:30.. and mechanically did all the stuff I do every mrng.. pack lunch...cook rotis...chat a bit and then get ready n rush to work... But then to my surprise the trousers I bought last week are loose for me now... :( and I did not buy a belt.. (I AM SOMETIMES SO SMART that I doubt myself) anyways, somehow managed but then the kurtis were all un-pressed... somehow caught hold of the striped cotton shirt and managed again. Reached station before time... took some other train.. took some other bus... and then reached office only to realise that I badly need to sleep again... :D :D Thought will doze off in the meeting.. cud not... :( and then ran to the workstation, so much to do... was doing sumthing n felt will fall off on the monitor.So,shifted attention to my laptop and started typing in an attempt to stay awake ... but I still think I will bang my head into the laptop monitor... Dont like it here anymore... new ppl have come in... we dont gel much... they make fun of me.. and I kinda ignore as am too tired at the end of the day to put my grey cells to use and give them a fitting reply... Damn! you Daylight saving... U screwed up my system again... now it will take another two weeks for me to get settled with the change in time... huh! I am in a complaining mood today... so I think I shud just stop right here...right now... Nobody loves reading someone crib...crib n crib... ;) Ah oh! I was abt to fall asleep again... zzzzz... need to do something to avoid it... ahem! music? walk? work? duh! Thursday here is like Mini-Friday.. people appear sleepy... they dont want to work.. and everybody secretly wishes for the fire alarm to go off or something to happen to the weather that they get to go home :D :D I am now on my way to home, my gud friend here is going back to India tomorrow and I will be all alone... its gonna be tuff... but then... let it be... :) I have loads of masala abt the new gang that has come up...will share... :) Ciao! Abhi ke liye...

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UK Diaries - Oct 26 - From office

On a day like today, I look back and wonder, what am I doing here and why am I doing, whatever am doing. There are lot of things that make no sense at all to us and still we just keep doing them coz we need to... and we have to do them. I am not gud at writing may be... but my soul lies there... when I write I feel I am free... but then my interest in written communication has always hampered some relationships... there are few things, i cant tell people on their faces but I can for sure write abt it and share it with them. I donno why... but am like that eversince am a kid... I always believed in writing letters to the people who meant something or anything for me. I used to write letters to my best friend in college... I think that's so crazy when I look back but we actually wrote letters to each other even when we spent all the time with each other... WEIRD!! that may sound... but there are things we cud not say.. gratitude...thanks... care...concern... dreams... we wud share it all in the letters. And it did not end there, I wrote farewell letters to all my friends telling them all I could never say when we were together.It is a strange life indeed. Things you cant say. you can write. :) Call it anything, but makes me fell more comfortable. I suggest someday you too try it, there is nothing like receiving a handwritten letter from that special someone telling you things you always wanted to read.... :) and again there is nothing like writing what you want to say on a piece of paper and share it. I think it saves us from our intial hesitation and also helps in bridging the gaps in any relationship. Letters, that's why, I wud say are important. Just a thought that crossed my mind while I am on break in office... I am not loving it here... but then...I gotta do what I gotta do... :D

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UK Diaries - Oct 23 2009 -From office

From today onwards I start a new series of posts...They will be random... half-baked...and live most of the time...also no spell checks...no editing... I am calling them UK Diaries... :) So, I am not going to think but when in office, while on the road, while at home...watever comes to my mind...am going to write abt it... and then someday I will look back and laugh n cry abt it... :D So herez the first one in the series...I wrote in office on Oct 23. Sometimes there is no reason and you find yourself smiling at life or at someone u hardly know. Sometimes life just seems so wonderful that you dont see anything but happiness inside out. Sometimes you tend to do things you wud never want to and still smile about it. I donno its coz its a friday or coz I am wearing tht black dress or may be coz I donno, something is there that makes me smile... and here I get an advice as I write this... gimme a break am wearing an off-shoulder and a female in my office from India comes and asks me to pull off the end of the neck coz she thinks its a wardrobe malfunction:D That explains, never wear it when u r with the gang, they will assume its a wardrobe malfunction. Damn! I cant stop laughing about it. Isn't it weird? Wasted my 30 pounds on this top and it turns out that everyone thinks its a wardrobe malfunction... LOL Apart from this funny thing that happened to me right now, morning was funnier I think. I asked my hotel to book a cab for me so I cud reach office in time... and as always I assumed that it will be billed to my credit card. The driver was a Pakistani(or so I assume), does not matter much though, we talked in English only but. So, as I reached office, I took 2 pounds from my bag, gave it to him and he was shocked"No..No..No... Mam! ONLY this??"...I still remember the look on his face and I was like all innocent, "yeah! how much more shud I pay for the tip?". He responds,"No,bill...bill". I was like "Ah! Oh! Okay! You are talking about the bill. Well it will be billed to hotel right?". He said,"Let me ask my boss" and finally I paid him the fare coz hotel messed up. But,khe khe khe... I still cant forget that incident... I mean the look that said "how cud you??"... :D :D haha... wat a beginning to the day? and then I got stuck at the super-secure gates of office so had to call sum1 for the PIN and stuff. And when I reach office, I realised my back was exposed all the while I was walking coz I forgot to pull my sweater down while wearing it in the car... :0 :0 Embarassing that was... But kya karein... ;) So I reach my desk and as soon as I took off my sweater. I cud see THAT look... which means "WTF, you are wearing THIS to office" and till someone came and told me frm Team India that I shud adjust my top, I assumed I was looking gud. Can't believe they dont get the fact that its a one-shoulder top... so itz gotta drop down over the arm on the other shoulder's side. Anyways, all fashion gone down the drain. Am sure, since I have finally brought my umbrella with me today, it will NOT rain. But anytime I forget it, it HAS to rain... No matter if its sunny all the while. Sometimes I get the feeling that God is purposely after me to prove the fact that he DOES control my life. Well, something is seriously wrong somewhere. Imagine I booked a cab yesterday, it turned up, waited for me without calling in and went away and I already told half of the gang that they can accompany me in the cab...hehe... finally i got drenched in the rain and waited for the BUS at office. So everyone laughed at me... and if that was not enuff... I had to run in the rain to catch the train... :( and I got to sit next to the gang and I cud see them stealthily laughing at me or probably being sorry for me in a funny way. Well who said its gonna be easy... ;) Its gonna be a new day tomorrow and ofcourse something new coming my way.... :) Note : I can read your blogs from office but cannot comment. Blogger does not open. Not that anyone pushes me to comment, but some of the posts are so amazing that I want to comment on them tabhi ke tabhi... so I will and I will also respond to the interesting comments this saturday... love ya guys...

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Travel, Work,Racism and ofcourse THE ME!! ;)

I open my Astro just like that on TOI side window and it says- You will feel a little depressed today and I am like "tell me about it".I am not well today and I was all ready for office when I realised am not well enuff to catch that train, walk those miles, so I stayed back and I donno if I did the right thing. I have one business meeting, one lunch meeting and a team dinner tonite and not going to office means skipping on all the interaction but then I am not interested in making friendships here. I just wanna do my stuff here and go back home to my ever-so wonderful family and my dogs. :) Okay! so about travel, here is a quick summary : As I always say, the worst part of a journey away from home is not the journey frm the home airport to another airport,It is the trip that you make from your home(with your family) to the home airport to catch you flight. It makes me feel sick. I travel a lot for the women of my age (that's Bridget Jones effect, Okay!) but everytime I go away frm home, its a tuff thing. I always insist that I take a cab frm my place to the airport which is 2hrs away but Dad believes in the family ritual of dropping us at the airport.I LOVE HIM for that n for a couple of other things too. *giggles* But, the time spent in the car till you reach the airport is dreadful. I kept imagining how I will get down and look back and wave to mom. I felt sick, nervous and everything but more than that I had an urge to pee. Shit!! The pee-rablem comes again so we stopped at some random hotel on the way to gurgaon...hehe... I ran inside,smling at the reception, used the loo, thanked and ran back. By now, I have mastered the art. Can't help till Indian govt comes up with good public toilets for women. Anyways, I was doing everything mechanically till I boarded my plane as if I was programmed. I did not look back once I stood in the departure queue coz I did not want to say bye to mom. So I really don't remember how and when I boarded my plane, whom I called, what I said. I did everything in daze may be. So, I slept with my mouth wide open in the plane till we reached Amsterdam, and its a beautiful place, it was soooo cold and I was wearing a tshirt,capri and chappals(most comfy for long travel). I shrieked wen we got off the plane, it was so cold. Anyways, next thing I know, I dropped my handbag first on a co-pasenger's foot and later while boarding the other flight on the ground-staff's foot. hahaha... I cant help but fumble up stuff... :D that's me. Reached Leeds Airport and found that my cabbie lost me and I lost him. Waited for him in the parking (which btw means that I had to carry 33Kgs of luggage downslope and upwards again). It was sick, my back hurts even now. Finally he called me and he was a GORA, kinda relief. I did not want any Pakistani or Indian cabbie for the reason that I did not want to strike a conversation, I was too tired. But the GORA, did talk a lot. I faked sleep. :) I could see everyone at the airport, in the plane and the lounge staring at my novel which was Bridget Jones' Diary. They might be secretly feeling sorry for me. :D :D Anyways, it was so cold, my nose started bleeding inside...damn! all the woollens are worth trash so shopped hard for some gud stuff here... still shopping... The place is good except that it is freakingly cold and it rains whenever rain gods plan a manicure. ;) Donno!! Got drenched yesterday so paying the price by staying home today. Workplace sucks like everyone's work place. Some gross people playing politics so me minding my own business and doing what I want to...Not interested in coming back here again , atleast not for work. BTW, the place is good for shopping... retail therapy is the mantra for a depressing day. Aur kya? haan... I faced racism too... A drug-addict sorta, chin,ear,eyebrow pierced woman and me were abt to take opposiute tray table seats in the train, when she made a sick face and looked at me... like Huh! Bitch how can u sit here? but I smiled back and kept my stuff there. She picked all her stuff and looked back at me, made a bad face again and sat in another row. I was like "Cool, Bitch I have the full seat to me, you go suck up the back row". :D :D I felt very very humiliated actually. I was dressed completely Indian, head-covered and all and why am stressing on that... well the day I changed my wardrobe to western, I see people passing me off as Brazilian, Filipino, Italian (can u beat that?)... hehe... but no one has looked the same way at me as yet. I dont care anyways... I am off to my churidaars again... :) Okay! that's quiet a long story.. and I managed it coz am grounded... cant check blogs frm office.. so am visiting them all today... Aur yaar.. meri diwali lonely aur boring this.. i cooked maggi and sulked.. .wat did u do?? Arey haan, mainey shopping ki naa diwali pe :D :D Ek warm si jhappi... UK ki bheed mein khud ko dhoondti huyee... Aapki Harshita *wah wah*

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Gumshuda!!

Haanji, main nahi hoon Gumshuda... bas post ka naam hain yaar!! Main firse aa gayi... :) Well, a lot of things happened in the past few weeks. I decided on taking a temporary break from my team and shift to another team, which meant, shifting to a new country too. So I am in UK for work and I am going to be here for quite sometime. It was not an easy decision afterall, I have not had any international travel in past 1 year, I travelled within India but only for couple of days. So I was a little anxious as to how I'll manage without so many things I am dependent on, like my family and all the luxuries at home. Some people played an important role while I was reconsidering this decision. My friend Archi told me "Go for it, you need that sense of independence back", Mads told me,"Come on, you should go. You need that and you will manage", Richa convinced me that its the right thing that am doing even if I will miss her wedding which we had planned so much for. So thank you to all of you... :) You people are one of the major reasons I could take this decision. The travel was funny, sad and irritating all at the same time. So, there are lot of stories to be told.I did some hilarious stuff unknowingly and got embarassed publicly. :D :D But then, that's signature me. Here,I start my day at 5 am(yeah! Sunny I can see the surprised look on your face) and by the time I come back its 7:30 pm in UK and midnite in India so I hardly get to talk to my people. I call them and they are asleep. There is no energy to cook, clean or do anything at all...still I try checking mails and stuff and then I collapse on the bed after washing and cooking at around 11pm. I get up and feel like I have slept only for an hour... but the clock does not lie, its 5 am again... :( I swear under my breath, even though am alone. I travel to office by train and bus, so its like I walk for half a km, then take a train for 45 mins, then walk to the bus stop, take a bus for 20 mins and then walk a km to get to my office. I know...I know... it sucks... but then, cant help it. This post is smaller as compared to others coz it is more of a status update on where I am, what I am doing and why I am missing from your lives and blogs. There is so much to talk about... a lot of funny things... but I will post them later.I am feeling so sleepy in office and the worst thing about staying awake is that YOU CAN NEVER FAKE IT. Jhappiyaan! aur haan Happy Diwali yaaron... main toh life mein first time diwali par ghar se duur hun... :( Am jealous... grrr.... :D :D

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