Things are not always what they seem to be...

Bahut zor shor ke saath I promised a post on HOW TO SHOO A POTENTIAL GROOM away, sadly it will have to wait till next time... Hmm... wondering why?? Well, there are more bizarre things as compared to THIS. Newspaper is my favorite breakfast...now don't imagine me, eating up all the papers... I mean, I love reading newspapers like 85% of hindustani population and the news items fascinate me, shock me and at times trouble me. Like today's headline did. It talked about HC panel's findings that 19 yr old Ishrat (in picture) was killed as a part of the fake encounter... You know what I felt the very moment I read it... I wanted to catch hold of all the officers who were involved in it and burn them alive... (Okay! I know I get hyper... par it is justified). Just for the sake of promotions and some medals they killed 4 innocent people... By gawd! mere dimaag mein bas ek hi baat aati hain... yeh log kahaan jaakey bharengey yeh saarey paap... I sometimes feel scared that who knows someday it can happen to someone I know... what will I do then?? Will I just sit-up and watch all the shit happening quietly or will I do something to change it all?? I think I would choose the latter... better to die fighting for justice than witnessing this crap... I am pretty agitated... how about abducting the officer's kids and killing them?? haan... huh! But then, we are not that big the devils... I truly wish that everyone who kills innocent people like this, burns in hell and gets rotten till they are alive... I feel disgusted right now... seriously... Rabba!! hum sabki band bajaaney ke liye agar aapkey paas time hain toh aisey bandon ka kuch kyun nahi kartey... Next in the line of troublesome stuff was this one liner - 'Only whores choose partners'. I was busy guessing who cud have said that, when I saw an old man's pic next to the news-piece.He is some moral police for a village and community called 'KHAP'. So, Sunny now you know that all the shit they show in TV serials is not that fake... According to this cruel-man(I wud not take the pains of calling him GENTLEMAN), no woman has the right to choose her partner and ofcourse nothing like same gotra marriages. Kitna time hain inn logon ke paas, sahi mein. They call it protecting their honor... Honor by killing the couples who marry in same gotra, by killing women who dare to speak... Fine. No decent language now. I SPIT ON THEIR HONOR-STORY, BULL-SHIT. Yeah! I am angry... so wat... I am just done with this crap of honor and moral policing. I am done with this shit of fake encounters and innocent people being killed... Theek hain, I know I cannot catch these morons by collar and punch them on their face... but I, for sure, can write about it... share about it... and I did just that. SHAME ON Former city police commissioner K R Kaushik, JCP (crime branch) P P Pande, suspended DIG D G Vanzara, then ACP G L Singhal, and ACP N K Amin who planned this encounter for their selfish motives. SHAME ON Mahendra Singh Tikait, the Chaudhary of KHAP community for stupid moral policing. Guys, some day, your past will catch up with you and each one of you will pay for it all...if the findings are true. And of course, Mr. Narendra Modi, do you have anything to say abt it?? I know Mom, Gals should not swear :) but then don't you say good human beings don't harm others... This one is a fair deal here!! P.S. I wonder why these days my posts are more about Jagruti and Revolutions. May be, I have started seeing the world as it is... and not with rose-tinted glasses. Good for me. For news items discussed : http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/news/india/Ishrat-encounter-fake-Probe/articleshow/4984450.cms http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/news/india/Only-whores-choose-their-partners/articleshow/4984378.cms

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For the last time, one more time.

The recent incidents have kept me glued to the television but more than that it has left a positive person like me stressed out and feeling really really low. I am such a patriot...I can't help but take it all so badly on me... :( I don't feel like seeing news channels, read papers and visit the blogs who talk abt the deadly incident..I am sorry for that but then...I am a sensitive citizen of the country... I just cannot tolerate the blood-shed and injustice done to the innocent people. I am fighting at home, crying for the people and feeling guilty. I have not slept well for past 60 hrs...I am either glued to TV or dreaming abt the mishap all this while. Once I got to know its over, I took a sigh of relief but then those funeral scenes made me so sick...that I have not eaten well and I am almost at the verge of throwing up as I type. This is may be my LAST post about this... coz nopes... I cannot stand it anymore. I never thought something would affect me so badly... I am questioning my job and my role towards my country... "Okay! I pay taxes...what else??".I feel like leaving my job and devoting myself completely to the country in some way... I am getting these so-called STRANGE IDEAS. I donno what I will do about it. Only coz I am too lazy to study long, I skipped IAS else in most of my interviews I have been told I should not WASTE myself in IT... I donno whats that supposed to mean...but then I have been told the same by many people... One of them was a DGP(J&K region)... No use thinking abt it now. I had so many plans for a 2-week leave I was about to take... Now, I donno what will I do with that time... So for the last time (maybe) I am writing about this... and I am really sorry guys, I did not read or comment on the posts related to this incident... Not that I am a coward...I just need sometime to let it all sink-in. I have stayed at Taj Hotels and this one just shook me so much that I know, it will take sometime for me to accept the loss our country and all those innocent people and families have faced... It will take time for me to accept that LIFE INDEED IS TOO SHORT... uhuh!! and PEOPLE ARE SO BRUTAL... This post is not intended to gain sympathy,advice or to depress you guys... Just that this is what am feeling right now and I can't help it. I will be back to my usual self in SOME time... I donno how long itz gonna take though... Take Care Guys... and Live it up every moment... coz life is too short to let it go un-lived and un-noticed.

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Bloody Morning

Fine. I am not a strong gal... I accept it. I woke up to the sound of gunshots today... and a distant voice talking about terrorists and people being killed... Before I could realise what it was, my feet directed me to the room where the news channel was ON. I rubbed my eyes so many times to believe what I read on the screen. 81 Dead,265 injured. Biggest Terror Attack in India. Mumbai Burning....Taj Heritage torn. OMG, for a second I felt I would collapse and fall down on the ground. I started crying for no reason. May be hormones or the sensitive side of me, I just could not imagine THIS happening to MY people, MY country...but yeah! I can't even imagine any other part of the world to undergo what we have been going thru since last nite. Foolish me! I did not bother to watch TV last nite so the morning news were such a shock for me. I will not say much, just that... I am tired of being woken up like that....Shit!! Sometimes I feel, I could just go there and kill those guys... I so very want to work towards this. Its Okay! You can call me an extremist... Call me that. I have had enuff of the bloodshed. Enuff is enuff. We lost our best officers, innocent people,small kids and to top it all the peace of our mind coz of these bunch of morons...who want to rule the world with guns and grenades... Damn you guys!! Are you guys gonna live forever?? Your greed will lead you to hell. I am not a muslim but I have frenz who are and they tell me sacred QURAN does not talk about killing people....It does not. No one wants this blood-shed... Guys! you are sick in mind... I feel so helpless and weak right now... Shit! and people told me "YOU ARE STRONG"... WTF... I feel so inhuman looking at those pictures and waiting for people to be killed.... I have always been the one for PEACE but today THEY have broken all boundaries of my tolerance and I also go in with the EXTREMISTS...who believe in tit for tat. Hang them... Abuse them...do watever... But Please Stop this... I am not strong enuff to see this... One day it would be me...but as they say about Punjabis in battle-field... When I die, I will take a few alongwith me for sure... Wish I could really do something abt it... I am pissed with myself... I am sitting here in the comfort of my home...typing this....and cursing and cribbing... Can't write more.... I pray for the families and people who have died and the people who are still caught in there... And you Mother-fuckers...you call urself Jehadis... You will burn in hell, devils...!!

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Words that shook me up...

I told myself there would not be another such incident again...but who am I to decide? I was reading thru Gaurav's post about Delhi Blasts, and suddenly I cud recall those words again that made me cry yesterday somewhere inside my heart. We were preparing for breakfast yesterday as it was Sunday and Mom had something special for my kid brothers in the menu (Aloo-Parathas)..As usual we were having fun and teasing each other...When out of nowhere, Ankit brought up the topic of the blasts in Delhi which happened this Saturday and Dad said something that made me feel so shaken up from inside that I could not even eat a single bite of the sandwich I held in my hand. He said," Socho koi maa shaam ko ghar mein roti banaa rahi hogi, aur intezaar kar rahi hogi ki mera beta ghar aayega office se toh kitna khush hoga ki uskey pasand ka khaana banaaya hain...Uss maa ko kya pata ke betey ne kabhi ghar aana hi nahi" : "Think about a mother who wud be cooking her son's favourite dish for dinner and waiting for him to come home and suprise him...poor woman! she wud not know that her son wud never return home coz he died in the blasts" and he went away to his room. I could feel the lump in his throat. :( Everytime I write about the blasts, I hit another low in my mood... I can't write anymore in this section...I just wanted to share these words which held enuff depth to keep me thinking the whole nite and even now... My heart goes out to people who lost their loved ones in this tragedy which is a master-mind of a bunch of jerks. Wishing for peace and harmony in the world, I sign off.

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AS PER OUR PLAN

And as I suggested sometime back in one of my posts, the Karnataka govt has finally come up with a plan to assign IDs to all its residents so that they'll be able to do the needful from their side to curb terrorism. Hope this move inspires other states also.

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And it did not end there...

It is so ironical that at the time when I was reading up Chetan Bhagat's "Three Mistakes of My life", Ahmedabad was burning. There were another series of blasts (almost 17) in the city and they even blew up Civil Hospital where victims were treated. :( I said 'ironical' coz the book I read was also about a story based in Ahmedabad and how the city survived an earthquake and a dark day in the history of the city when Hindu-Muslims burnt each other to death during Godhra Incident. It is about three friends : Govind, Ish and Omi ; their small but ambitious business of a sports' shop and how were they affected each time Gujarat went thru a low. It also talks about the communal riots in the year 2002 that left the whole nation feeling ashamed of the inumanity people showed towards each other. When I was going thru the turbulences that Govind and his frenz went thru while saving a muslim boy Ali, the city was actually going thru the worst in the present time 26th July 2008. There were almost 17 blasts reported that injured 200 people to be approximate and killed some 40 people. If Bangalore was not enuff!! I feel so insecure and suffocated and at times guilty for not being able to do anything to save these people. The book clearly reflects how fury can make one kill in the name of religion and it does not matter even if the person at the receiving end is a small kid who is unaware tht he is hanging around with people whose relatives murdered his family out of rage. When I picked up the book, I cursed myself for choosing it over the romances as it started on a depressing note. But sooner I realised I cud not leave it before I finish reading it so I finished in straight 3 hours.(I have some reading speed, I tell u). The story that started started on a sad note tuk me thru a journey filled of emotions,courage,submission,religional-violence,selfish and crude politics, humantiy and the essence of love which is still alive somewhere inside all of us. The courage that a strict HINDU priest's son showed when he gave up his life fighting to save a MUSLIM kid is touching yet inspiring. It made me feel no matter what We, the people don't intend to avenge ourselves by killing others. It is only the seeds of revenge and violence that are bred inside us by some political parties feeding their own self-interests and fake egos, that make people feel indifferent towards other on the basis of something as sacred as religion. The book is a must read for every Indian and ofcourse for everyone else too as it makes one realize, there is till some amount of humanity left in there. They say everything rests on hope and I hope someday...one day the sun will shine again, someday a rainbow will appear...there will be some silver lining somewhere...!! With this note, I end my post today and well, its already too late and I have not slept. FYI, the fever came back again. Although, latest is Mom mademe switch to soups and boiled veggies for the time-being as she feels my intestines need loads of rest. They do and what about my mind...grrrrr.... I knw I can feed myself up some Mills n Boons stuff and feel a lil better but what about those who lost their loved ones? :( For the book-related info : http://www.chetanbhagat.com/the_books/t3moml/index.html For more on the communal riots visit : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2002_Gujarat_violence P.S. Sadly, for two consecutive days my posts are only centred around blasts. :(

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Another day of horror

One thing is for sure, Mom is always right. She asked me to avoid news channels and television and well, I did,but then my brother called me up in the afternoon and asked me to switch on the TV set and tune into news. My prompt reaction or question was if it was a depressive piece of news, he was like," OK, Don't!!". This triggered alarm bells, there was something really wrong somewhere and when I surfed thru all useless channels, I finally managed to find TIMES NOW and OMG! there were almost 6-7 serial blasts reported in Bangalore. I was all out of the anti-allergic daze I was in and I started fiddling thru my contact list to call up all the people I know of in bangalore and ask them if they were alrite. I was so shocked and felt a shiver run down my spine when I saw most of the blasts tuk place near my frenz's house. I smsed all of them as the news channels flashed the news of the telephone networks being jammed. I have many frenz there. Thankfully most of them replied and assured me that they were safe but some of them did not bother to respond and kept me biting my fingernails. Anyways, the medicines had already started working and probably the stress tuk to me, I collapsed in my bed and before I cud realise I was fast asleep. When I woke up in the evening, I saw one of my frenz generously responding to an sms sent 5 hrs back, he said " We r OK". I was kinda relaxed. All of the people on my list were safe but what about the others?? I wondered. We human beings are so selfish at times. :( I cud not muster up the courage to watch the news again, although mom told me there were not many casualties reported. If Jaipur blasts were not enuff to affect me, another serial blasts and that too in a city I am pretty close to. I have been travelling in and out of bangalore for past 6 months and it was like second home to me for a while. I cud identify with all the places flashed on the news and it was so scary. Mom was right, I shud not have watched the news, it made me feel so enraged and frustrated. When will this brutal killing spree end?? Nobody has the answers to these questions. IB says they knew abt it and well they think these attacks are retaliatory. Who cares?? We, the people of India and the world are haunted with just one question? WHY?? Why can't they just stop killing people? What's our fault? Why do we, the common people suffer? I am going to bed again today with so many questions crossing my mind. And before I do that, my uncle called me up to enquire abt my typhoid status. He advised me that it may replapse so I shud, I must take rest. How can I rest when I know the truth is one day it will be one of us! I have been an eye-witness to communal riots in Moradabad's village in UP and I will definitely write abt it but for now my heart-felt wishes for the Bangaloreans and I pray for their safety and well-being. There is no end to this violence. Absolutely no end. :(

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Plan of Action...

This post is in continuation with my post on Jaipur bomb blasts and in answer to my dear friend Abhinav's comment. I realised that I have been doing nothing but cribbing about what happened,loopholes and blah blah....but I did not give any suggestions/solutions from my side... Thanks to him I got my wake-up call. :) In a way I was trying to avoid being foolish while presenting my suggestions....thats how everyone saves their skin...Abhi, its a day of self-realization for me...all credit to you.. I personally think if we stress upon few vital factors we can achieve a level of security in the country.

• Corruption : Rings bells in my ears!! but it is the core reason for the terrorism we are facing in India. I think we can do away with the frequency of attacks if we keep a check on it. Bribery for inflirtation,cross-border illegal immigration,fake ids,passports,driving licenses and all other proofs for being an Indian resident is the most prevelent reason which comes in picture whenevr a terror strike hits India.
• Security: Yet again, Money rules!! 3 months back a TOI reporter got access to the secured areas of IGI Airport in Delhi after bribing for few thousands. He worked there for 2 months shooting all the important security points. Security at the airports is for namesake. I have been travelling in and out of India frequently and I see that most of the times the cops dont even bother to stamp the bags, forget about making sure that I am travelling safe. I think we need to work strongly on our security in all areas. More alert cops (Wish the govt starts paying them well and they get some motivation and appreciation in their field of work) will definitely avert such tragedies.
• Poverty - If we could work on it in the right direction. I am not an economics student to comment on that but with the inflation rates soaring and the poverty increasing each day, I wonder why people wud not kill other for money?
• Alertness - CCTVs, Constant ID checks, Stringent laws are few measures that can make our country more alert towards such attacks.
• A Unified Approach : Central agencies tell State Agencies and they sleep over it.That is what we have been witnessing for long. There has to be a channelisation of the information in a secured manner so that right people have the information and they can act thereon and a feedback should be taken. What happens now is they convey the info and dont even bother to check back if the people acted on it and no one questions them until something happens.
• I agree that religion does not bear the fruits for terrorism but offlate a lot of Madrasas are promoting terrorism in the name of Jehad. Why we dont have a check on them? Why are we losing our educated countrymen to a bane like terrorism.

The numbers will increase but ofcourse We, the people can suggest but the concerned people have to implement the right-plan to restrict the losses we have borne at the hands of terrorism.

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Wake-up call....Have you woken up yet??

Yet another bomb blast in India, and the political parties swing into action with the same old blame-game theory...Nobody is interested in tracing down the culprits(as it seems) and taking appropriate measures to strengthen the security of our country. I understand, terrorism and terrorists are everywhere but I strongly believe in the lessons I have learnt thru my dad. Ironically he hardly told me anything directly, I usually overheard him talking to someone and picked up his thoughts and tried my best to infuse them in my life. Dad once told my 6 yr old cousin," if you put a strong face holding hands together, the person who plans to harm your family will think twice before attacking you".I agree. Do you stop fighting back coz the enemy is stronger?? ah! I dont think so... I think why not we shun them so hard that they think twice before harming us...Someday they WILL give up on this madness in the name of religion.... Rather than cribbing about how strong,intelligent and omni-present the enemy is, we can take up the task in hand and take some hard core steps to control the situations that have killed many innocents all across the country. I really wonder( no offence meant here), who suffers at the end : The common man...the WE in the YOU that we carry with us... :( There is no Hindu and no muslim in the dead...they are all humans who had their families,jobs and dreams just like all of us...As it happens always, in Jaipur too, muslims came forward to help Hindus and viceversa. I personally feel these religious debates are politically motivated and the common man does not even bother to think about religion when it comes to his countrymen and people. A religion does not define a man, a man defines his religion. Its the man involved and not the religion involved who is the cuplrit. I feel pity for the people who believe that one's religion teaches him to kill innocent men,kids and women. Everytime such news hit the newspapers, the columnists come with examples of compassion and resilience of people in India. Gimme a break!! Enuff resilience...enuff tolerance....why cant we just stand up and say, "Once and for all, We are not going to tolerate it anymore". Why dont we just stop giving resilience and tolerance for an excuse and take charge and safeguard ourselves. High-time the government comes up with a PLAN OF ACTION. I heard about a federal agency coming up, my question is why was it not there and what is it with ATS,IB and RAW and even state intelligence agencies. Why come up with a new agency, why not re-visit our loopholes and make up for it right there with the teams that have the sheer experience that is required. I am not as intelligent as the people who sit at the top and take decisions but as a patriotic citizen of this country, who has always looked up to the National Flag with pride and ownership, it seems absolutely pointless when an IG,police comes up and says," We did not take the securirty threat information seriously". Damn, you have a convoy shielding you, why wud you? This shows how careless our system is, We cannot blame someone else for runing our peace and harmony...Nopes we cannot...Until we realise that WE(the system) are responsible for what happens to us.. I hope the government and security agencies wake-up to this call and stop giving childish interviews blaming one another for the mishaps....We shud join hands and safeguard what belongs to us....I am sure the common man will support all the measures, in case there are any taken. Let us stop the WHODUNNIT game and "whoz fault is it"- thing?? We are no soft-targets....let us prove we are indeed not soft...we welcome love with open arms and we know how to give it back to them.... P.S. Me not too gud with political stuff but cannot stop my emotional side talking...My sympathies with the pople who suffer at the hands of the fallacies on the system's part.

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