"Itz time to change"

Change is constant as they say but sometimes it happens to us and we completely ignore it until someone shakes us up and brings us to the real world. For me, the person who shook me up and made me aware of this change is my brother, Money. All he said was " I was wondering you don't have local friends, you don't go out much..." and then he paused sensing that it will cause a big furor in the house and we decided we will talk abt it later. I knew what he was about to say. This is something that has been bothering me a lot too but I always put in on the back-burner. I could not sleep well last nite thinking about how my life changed in past few years and it worried me. I am more grounded and home-bound now but I was more outgoing and travel-kinda person earlier. I used to meet a lot of people, talk and talk. Now I spend my time working on weekdays,writing exams and cleaning on weekends. I HAVE CHANGED... CHANGED A LOT but I have my reasons. Firstly I thought I should blame it on my age, turning 26 makes you feel more mature which means you are expected to be good at work, get married and be focussed but then I thought it does not mean, I should stop having fun..Naah! I have a job that makes me work from home, if I am not travelling. So in a way its not getting up early morning, dressing up and munching on my breakfast while I run for my cab. I get up late(now), sip on hot water and get to work in my night pyjamas. I dont need to think about what dress to wear, what accessories to match, what shoes and what kinda hair. In short, I know its quiet a boring start to the day and a lazy one too. I know most of us dream about it. :D :D I am at work from 9 in the morning, that means in my own room, at my desk, and the cozy bed lures me now and then to sleep, but I dont. I fix my own breakfast, cook lunch for my family and get back to work again. There are times I work till 2 in the morning, and that's the disadvantage. I am off for my walk at 6pm or at times 8...thanks to some pervs, I now walk on the terrace and not on the road across the street after being groped twice. So again, no going out for walks which means I should get up early morning to do so, which I don't do. Weekends, I spend washing, cleaning and most of the times, writing my MBA exams or writing my IT certifications. Drawback of studying in hostel was that I lost all my friends to various locations across the country and an out of town job gave me a lot of new frenz but then different location-postings made me lose them too. I came back home and the new job made me meet some new people but the work-from-home grounded me completely as my team is worldwide and we have no seats for WW teams. Now, whenever I am in bangalore, I freak out with my frenz and live it up... else it is a very routine thing when I am home. Blame it on my frequent stint with sickness(for those who follow my blog religiously, it is a regular thing to hear abt), I stopped going out coz I was SO bedridden all the time. I CANNOT eat outside food after typhoid, I dont see the need to shop every week coz I dont go OUT for work and partying... it has become a vicious circle that needs to be broken some time soon. Not that I am not happy with life,I am pretty mast with it... just that, my workaholic nature has affected me a lot in past 3 years and I did not notice. All that mattered was WORK, and more WORK. I have missed family weddings, friends weddings and lots of important ocassions coz nothing seemed to appeal to me if it is not related to work. Altogether I realized that my long-term sickness and of-course the weight gain made me go into a shell and create a fence around me, I kept working n working to avoid the feeling of helplessness sickness brought to my life back then. Now, when I know, what has happened to me. I have decided to take one step at a time and look around and appreciate other things in life too. WORK is not everything as someone truly said "On your death-bed, you wudnt think about your job and work, you wud think about LIFE and relationships". I dont want to miss on the wonderful life that it is... I wud want to re-visit and re-invent myself. Today, I free myself from the clutches of my workaholic attitude and my health issues. I deserve it too... and no one else but "I" can change it for me...Thanks Money for making me accept what I saw but did not accept... And for all you workaholics out there, YAAR!! AB TUM BHI JAAG JAAO, MAIN TOH JAAG GAYI :D WAKE UP !!