Dosti,Lafdey etc.

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Anyways, last 1 week went by in getting the laptop fixed but last two days were spent in contemplation. Kabhi kabhi mujhey bhi sochney ki beemari lag jaati hain... kya karein... ek chota sa bheja mere paas bhi hain...lol

I have realized a very imptt thing about myself : I tend to invest a lot, kinda 100% in every relationship in the beginning and I raise expectations by two-folds. People expect, I respect and there comes a time when I turn human and I fall short on the 100%. Here starts the mazedaar mess, the other person in the relationship starts doubting the genuinity from my side and I am completely misunderstood.

I think it is very human to do that, it is human to not being able to fulfill expectations. I am glad I am human enuff. Being sainty(donno if tht's a word) hurts at times... okay! okay... almost all the time. :)

So, boom goes the expectation and boom goes the relationship. Donno whom to blame, but as I always believe, sometimes letting go is the best we can do and it feels great to let go.

Now I set my soul free of all the burden of guilt, I set all of that 100% free and I set all those people free of my clutches. :)

Only few of my frenz understand the REAL me and they are with me for all those long years. Coz they understand what lies behind that smile, that frown, that "I donno what to say", "I care for you", "I am always there", that anger and that lil trickle of tear.

I am glad they stuck around and for everyone else, all I can say is sometimes people meet for a reason and we met for one. Probably, I am not needed in your life anymore, may be the reason for you is fulfilled, the lessons have been learnt from my side... so we move on.

In friendship, you never justify. You never do. I think in friendship you dont ask questions, you understand and you never see ki mainey itna kiya... usney utna kiya...u just do things for each other and you forget abt it. You never count such things... you count wonderful memories and sweet gestures maybe.

Jo bhi ho... I have some friends. We hardly talk but we understand. That is the beauty of a DOSTI. Silence is a language too. :)

Well, donno what you guys think abt all this... but as always jo mann mein aata hain... likh deti hun...

Aur waisey... did u miss me, blog-dost log?? hmm... ;) ;)