Once a saint, Now a sinner: 1/1/09

Kitni Baatein Hain, Kehna Chahoon Main.

Thanks a lot for your prayers for I's dad. I am sure, the BIG guy up there will listen to us and make some ammends there. Life is pretty busy these days. I am shuffling between work,home and sickness. Seems the fever is taking too long again.The last time it stuck around after typhoid, I got rid of it when the ENT person gave me meds for allergy. My physician asked me to wait for 2 more days and then they will run blood tests for all sorts of diseases(some of the names are really scary). I am so sick of these pathos sucking my blood out...lol Meanwhile I realized I have a lot to share apart from the usual boring sickness stuff: 1. First of all, long time I have talked to Raka, she is my sweetest pal and I could not even find time to chat or talk to her. I miss her a lot but then amidst all the nuisance, I make sure I read her. I so very wanted to be there with her, sharing and predicting the next part of the story she is writing. It is done now, though. So no matter what you are always on my mind, gal. 2. I missed the wonderful posts each one of you write. I mean, I can relate to each one of you through posts. I know that when it comes from Abhishek, it wud be full of bindaas-giri, when it will be from Zirelda, it wud be more personal...and just like that. I missed and am missing all that fun coz after all the work and fuss, I get so tired that I pop the pills doc gave me to shoo fever away and I sleep. 3. I have my MBA exams coming up starting Feb and ending at the end of March. Trust me! I have not read a single chapter as yet. I donno how I'll pass them. 4. I have back to back trngs to deliver starting Feb 2 and ending in March. Too much pressure. Am definitely going to fail in my exams. :) This time, I'll also be delivering classes for Germans. I am not sure what kinda people they are. Will have to read up about them before the class. God help my vocal chords!! 5. Ankit-Arpit celebrated their bday on JAn 28 and I missed on posting something abt them. They are my twin brothers. :) 6. Femme Fatale is happening and I am not.. ;) 7. I am sick of being sick. :P and so is everyone around me...hehe...They are sick of hearing that I am sick. Damn! too much SICKness in this pointer. :D 8. I am not able to resume my exercise but THANK GOD!! I have not gained even an ounce so far. 9. I am going to read all your blogs this weekend for sure else I feel too out of touch. 10. Mom and Sunny made a video where they interviewed me about the veggies I eat and sadly I realized I named - Potatoes,Tomatoes and Onion as the main ones on my list....hahaha and they were hilariously shocked. I need to start eating greenies now.Uhuh! This reminds me, Mom cooked Spinach with Ghodey waali daal( I mean Chanaa Dal) and I had to eat it...OMG. 11. I am made to eat Amla every morning now and it is too sour, I wonder if my mom thinks that I'll die of sickness someday....lolWhat's next? MILK? Nooooo.... 12. Happy and Rustam fought and made up, but Rustam (the german shephered) beats the hell out of Happy Singh(the small spitz) everyday, so no matter how TIDE-jaisa white Happy is in the mrng, he becomes a yellow yello dirty fellow by nite...hahaha 13. My fone has gone bad and am using Baba Adam ke Zamaaney ka mobile fone these days and its too tuff to operate it. 14. Office mein sabki haalat kharaab ki bhaiya ab recession mein kahin naukri naa chali jaaye...roz calls and roz fighting :D 15. I secretly want that nothing comes in my blood-tests except that I am allergic coz I don't want to pop more pills... AB BAS!! Baaki, life hain... nautanki toh hogi hi...toh jab tak hain, mast hi jeeyengey... dekhein kya bigadta hain ;) And please don't drop me sad-sad messages in comments, I am fine, samjhey!...its just that...may be the allergy I had few months back is back. Tussi fikar naa karo, Punjabi hun, dekh loongi iss fever ko bhi... (dont you worry) Toh tension nahi leney ka... Mast Jeeney ka... ;) Pics : http://blufiles.storage.live.com/y1pFVmig3k601PCZUHM3KXrFBqqb6vD391A9hVkwh7oIHU5LQ7OL9czuMXVMPsLVczh

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Courage is 'HER'

My friend 'I' asked me," Why do me and you have all the problems in our lives and everyone else has a smooth go at life"? I did not know what to say, she was right when she said that coz she has seen a lot in life. It does piss you off when everyone else is having a great time while life is screwing you hard. We both have been friends for more than 7 years now and we have seen each other grow as individuals. We have had our share of downs... and yeah! not to forget the balancing ups. :) Her dad is suffering from Bone Cancer and nothing is working for him. Even the chemotherapy is not able to relieve him from the pain he goes thru everyday. Seeing your parents go thru pain is the worst that can happen to anyone. :( She is going through it for past 4 yrs almost and I have been a witness to HER pain all thru. She has been the strength and pride of her parents. To manage it all (work,home,hospitals), is not an achievable task but she does it everyday with that smile on her face which tells life,"I am not going to get tired.No, I will not give it up".Full of life, is how I remember her and this is how I relate to her. A beautiful person with an amazing sense of humor is a rare find and she is just that. I remember how we both used to walk on the hostel terrace every nite after dinner under the starry sky and dream of a great future for each other. We both dreamt of making our parents proud and doing something so when we grow old and look back, we wud not regret the life we lived. Jokes,Masti, Chotey-Motey Jhagdey aur Khatti-Meethi baatein, we had an amazing bond and now, when I see her go thru all the pain, I just want to give her a warm hug and tell her,"Oye! Sardarni, Main hoon naa yaar, Tu fikar naa kari...Aiss mushkil nu vi asi chhadaangey nahi, aidee vi kamar tod deyangey..."(Oye! I am always there for you. Lets break the spine of this problem too and move on). I wish I cud make it all vanish for her so she could smile the way she did earlier, so she cud dream again, so she cud live life the way she wanted to.... When I look at her, I feel ashamed of all those people who tell me that life is a pain and blah blah... coz not able to look good, not able to find a boyfriend, not able to be famous, not able to score marks etc are not at all problems worthy enough to be losing hope for....if you look at her. I salute her for her spirit for living it up even when life is messing it up for her. SHE is what I call a brave woman, a woman of substance...Braving all odds, she is facing life and fighting a new battle everyday... She does not even know that I blog so shez not going to read this one ever and good that she will not, coz it wud embarass me. Some friendships are such, where you don't express but you still love each other, where you don't voice it but you still stand by each other... We share such a bond... Today, thru this piece of writing I just want to share what comes to my mind every nite when I pray for her dad in my night prayers.. I go thru all these thoughts every nite almost.... But,the more I know of her... I tell myself...."No I will try not to crib anymore...Life is beautiful... Yeah it is.. Despite all its lows,it is good enuff to live and smile thru." We should consider ourselves blessed for all that we have. I request you all to pray for her dad... I truly believe Prayers can do what Science cannot.

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Thoda sa kuch mujhey bhi kehna toh hain....

I always tell myself -- "Yes, I will reply to all the comments on the blog" but I don't and frankly, I really want to, but I don't. Don't know why? Ohkay! hit me for tht.

Anyways, this is a weird and un-usual post...quiet like me.. may be...badi saari baatein hain waisey...

- I have a new baby sister now (my massi gave birth to the li'l angel on 26th Jan)-- we have not thought of a name yet but she is popular by the name of Khushi, as of now ;) and that's Khushi in the picture for everyone wanted to see her.

- I have this weird bond with pregnant women, I just want to know how they feel, what they eat, I love to hear their stories no matter if it involves nausea n blah blah. One of my frenz always said ki aisa lagta hain jaisey tu expect kar rahi hain :P Seriously, it is too brave a thing to give birth, someday I will do the same. :)

- My once close-friend got married last month and she did not care to talk to me about it. We always planned for her D-day...hmm...She just sent a casual invite mail where I was amongst the list of 55 people, while I was in UK. I called her n sms her roz, but there is no response. I really have no clue, why? All I tell myself is -- may be she has her own reasons. Anyways, I wish her luck.

- I got fairly good ratings at work but then, I am not convinced about the increments and all. Still, I am happy. I want to do much much better this year.

- My boss suddenly woke up to the fact that I am also one of the people in the team and he has now assigned me the MOST difficult task of all. I really have no idea where to begin and how to...but still, every time I fall, I tell myself-- You gotta prove it not to anyone else but you.

- This is the time when I needed support of friends and some understanding from them. Funny, this life is.It was withdrawn as soon as it was expected to be extended. :)

- I am having a constant difference of opinion with a lot of people close to me and finally, I am giving into the cliche coz I can't fight the norms of society right now. I tell myself - may be laters, I will get my turn too.

- Nopes. I am not hurt coz I have been misunderstood a lot. This time,I will not clarify to anyone coz I am tired. If you like me the way I am, with my imperfections, my mood-swings, my tantrums and a li'l bit of that honest love inside me -- it's great.. else wish u luck for future.

There is a lot more I wanna say aivayee, idhar-udhar ka, but then, may be, kabhi aur.. kisi din fursat mein :) Sab apna khayaal shayaal rakhkho...doston se lado par pyaar karo... aur yaar, life fultoo jeeyo... :D

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PARADISE LOST

'Shock' and 'Anger' brings me back to the blog-world. I never thought I wud come back to the blog like this but I could not help it. The news of the assault of women at Amnesia- a pub in Mangalore has shocked me. I know I live in a country where women are treated like shit and they are meant to be raped,molested and exploited. Oh! how did I forget it? Why this shock?? I donno. May be, I expected things to improve after what happened outside JW Marriot in Mumbai. I thought such things will not happen again, I was so wrong. Damn! How did I forget that I have some self-appointed moral police telling women what to wear, how to behave, when to smile, what to speak, how to breathe...?? BULLSHIT!! I donno how to put my emotions in words. I am simply pissed off with that Bloddy Asshole Shetty who is giving shameless interviews on news channels advocating his right to stop women from boozing and appealing to mothers and parents to stop their daughters from going to pubs and discotheques. Damn you bloody bastard!! You first get your act in place... Asshole... Who are you to tell someone what to do and what not to do?? Bloody frustrated soul, he made people molest women on the pretext of morally policing them. I hate to live in such a world. You ask me if I should try changing it... Damn! what shud I do? Kill these men?? Haan! All I can promise myself is that I will make sure that if I ever have a son and then I will teach him to be a responsible human being who understands that women are not meant to be treated like shit... treated the way they are treated now and then in my beautiful country, I wish I was proud of... I mean, how can you ever tell a woman not to booze or dance or enjoy... Does not she have the right to live it up like men do?? I myself am not into alcohol not coz I think it is down-market for a woman to do so...Nopes... Its only coz I personally feel it is something which will not affect me positively... Thats it... What do I say now?? I am facing this loss of words... I am angry, disappointed, broken and hurt yet again... Will this country ever stop hurting women... Will they ever realise that women have a right to live too... Will they ever let us women breathe in the air of freedom?? Pics : http://s3.causes.com/photos/lK/z6/AF/rm/RE/mY/dTnJ.jpg

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For those who missed me and who did not ;)

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Because Ramit said so....

Yes. I am not fond of doing tags but then am pretty fond of Ramit ;) So this one is for him. I started off with a "Yeah! I need to do it feeling" but enjoyed answering it all thru.

Ramit, neither I have a sexy secretary nor a bald head to boast about, but still have tried :D :D

1. What is your current obsession?
The Armani watch gifted by Bhai

2. What are you wearing today?
Black leggings, Pink long shirt and a boring earthy jumper.

3. What’s for dinner?
Chicken gravvy. Being a veggie, me skipping dinner tonite. Had golgappas ummmmmm...

4. What’s the last thing you bought?
Extra luggage at Leeds airport. India aakey Dad is buying everything I need. *feels pampered*

5. What are you listening to right now?
Mandy Moore asking Matthew Goode to sleep with her in a movie called 'Chasing Liberty'.

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
I think he is the perfect friend everyone looks for :) Sometimes I so much want to be like him (except for the hair, of course). I think his real-life friends are pretty lucky to have him around.

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
San Jose, California

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?
White cotton kurtas and blue faded jeans... ahem! I prefer shorts too, but mom threw them away :|

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Rome.

10. Which language do you want to learn?
Urdu. I want to read Mirza Ghalib and Gulzar.

11. What’s your favourite quote?
When you hit rock bottom, the only way is up :)

12. Who do you want to meet right now?
Ramit and go on a holiday to Mill Valley, CA with him. (remember Ramit??) ;)

13. What is your favourite colour?
White n Blue

14. Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.
1. Kohl for eyes and a nude lip gloss/balm works the best no matter wen n where. 2. Trust black when nothing else works. 3. You dont need a box full of jewellery to look gud. Simple n less is classy.

15. What is your dream job?
Senior Intelligence and Defence Strategist. Ohkay! Don't laugh.

16. What’s your favorite magazine?
Reader's Digest (it is kinda under extinction now) :|

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
Save for Bhai's new phone.

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
Red leather pants :| :|

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?
Paris Hilton

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
A simple straight trim...may be a fringe... good for my long hair.

21. What are you going to do after this?
Watch Chelsea's match in Barclay's Premier League

22. What are your favourite movies?
Dil Se, Naach, Unfaithful, Crank, Moksha.

23. What inspires you?
People who are challenged (mentally/physically) and still they live it up.

24. What do your friends call you most commonly?
Harshi/Moti

25. Would you prefer coffee or tea?
Tea in winters, Coffee in summers.. *thts funny, huh!*

26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
I clean my room, closet and desk.

27. What makes you go wild?
Ahem!! depends on what u r talking abt :P

28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
Personal Blogs, the most. I can relate to people who talk about their lives more than the abstract blogs. Like Ki, Ramit, Mads, Nidhi,Gaurav, Peter, AD, Richa, Americanising Desi,Zirelda, Skeeter,Sugarcube,Nanhi Pari. And I spend a considerable time reading stories at Mahesh's, Rohit's and Arjun's blog.

29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
Gulaab-Jamun

30. How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?
3

31. Favorite Season?
Monsoon. I love the rains.

32. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?
Chicken gravvy, Tandoori Chicken, Jeera Rice aur Lachcha Paranthey

33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
Like Ramit also mentioned;Try ignoring and it is easy to move on and forgive. But am not a saint, some ppl I try hard, but can't forgive.

34. What are you afraid of the most?
Losing my loved ones.

35. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Huh! I still look the same. Damn! the Genie in the dream was a fake.

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?
Old happy-couples, Small kids and yeah! wen Happy and Rustam come running to me just like that and try to cuddle.

37. A word that you say a lot?
Yeah

38. When was the last time you had sex?
Huh! that is sarcastic... :|

39. What is the antidote, when you are upset?
Golgappas and a warm hug.

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10 Great Things About Being Sick

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Height of Love

Pata hain kya? I have done something crazy today....

I am not well, down with fever :( I am reading all your blogs par not feeling like writing anything on my own. But somehow I stumbled over a blog post tht talked abt a short-story writing competition. Ab main koi itni gyaani toh hun nahi... still I thought why not give it a shot...after all bed par rest kar kar key bhi main bore ho gayi... and then people shud also suffer a bit after reading what I write naa...

Unhey bhi pata chaley boriyat ka dard kya hota hain... :P

So I gave myself a time-span of 15 mins and wrote watever came to mind. The rule was that it cannot exceed 250 words and should be centred around this picture.

Mainey titled diya : HEIGHT OF LOVE

Ab jhelo... I mean pado... aur buraayee wuraayee karni ho toh soch lena... ki main pehley hi beemar hun... dukhi ko aur dukh dogey... toh kahaan bharogey...hahahahaha... Kya mast torture maara mainey...anyways... pado ab. (Now bear with it and before u criticise me... remember that I am not well and giving more pain to someone whoz already suffering is nasty...hehe... am so gud at threatning people at time...read on now)

Lemme tell u before u start reading it...the characters are same old...Ghisey Pitey... Sia and Arjun... (soch rahi hun unki ek full-fldged story likh hi dun...lol)

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HEIGHT OF LOVE Acrophobia... Acrophobia Sia recalled it as soon as she looked at the escalator at busy North Point Station. She was not going to be afraid...no...she was not going to be... she kept telling herself, "Its just 4 floors". She stood there blank, staring at the escalator. "Hello, I wonder if there is something more interesting than me for a pretty woman to look at",a voice broke her silence of doubt. "Oh! well...umm...", she hesitated more. He could see the beads of sweat on her forehead and sense her nervousness... "Scared of heights?", he asked. She nodded in agreement. Before she could realize, he put his hand around her waist and with a soft push, both of them were on the elevator. She looked at him with shock. He whispered, “Don't worry. I am there. You have beautiful eyes, did anyone tell you that?” She blushed and replied with a smile, "And you have some chivalry, pushing a woman along with you on the escalator". "Here we come." He let go of her as soon as they reached the floor. "In that case, if you still want to remember me, I am Arjun", he smiled and disappeared in the crowd. "Some love stories begin and end on an escalator. It’s been 5 years", Sia thought loudly. "Ours did not” she turned around to see Arjun smiling at her. ”Yeah! Ours did not”, she smiled and while they kissed she looked at the ring in her hand and closed her eyes. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Okay! ab mujhey blame mat karna...jisney contest shuru kiya.. usko bolo... waisey bhi yeh select toh honey waali nahi... par ab likhi hain toh kisi ko toh padni padegi naa...time to take rest now... bye hain!! :) hehehe

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Let's screw life... ;)

I donno if I spent my last year sleepwalking or what, but then a lot happened that affected me in good and bad. The eye-opener came up today when I discussed everything with my managers for my performance rating. I got what I expected coz this time I did not expect to be among the top-contributors.I am one of those persons who believe that we can lie to the whole world, give them excuses but we can never lie to ourselves. I cannot lie to my ownself ever. Last year was full of complications in terms of my professional life, I was badly pulled into a political mud-fight in office during the start of 2008 and I knew right there that some people will definitely make sure that I go down deep into the dungeon and they did. I had to lose it all and I left my team coz I had no choice but to move on. I joined a new team and there was no good work there and soon I fell sick and typhoid clung to me so hard that it almost shook up all the foundations. Finally, I was called back to my ex-team and there were diff ground-rules that were defined this time and I had to abide by them to hold myself together in the team. I did. I lost the motivation factor but I kept smiling thru what I hated to do. :) I was always adamant that I did not want to give trainings but I did. I started giving Product trngs and soon, I got appreciations coming from every nook and corner. Okay, I did it but I did not love it. Today my managers told me, "Harshita, your biggest strength is your communication, they way you share what you know and you talk to people, you win them over and we wanted to exploit that and that is the reason that you have been giving trainings"... Soon after that, I asked myself, "Why did not I realize my worth, dammit?" Why do we never realize our own talents and strengths??...damn! Altleast I never do. My journey has been similar always, right from my skool days. My teachers discovered that I cud dance and made me dance in a skool festival. Another teacher discovered I could be a good speaker and she pushed me into public speaking in English, later a hindi teacher realized I cud do justice to Hindi too and I was the lead representative everywhere from my skool for Hindi Public Speaking events...These teachers made me believe I could do it and I kept doing it, winning and leading. I never realized I was good enough. After school, in college, my seniors discovered I could sing "My heart will go on" on stage when Celine was not available. :) I did.They discovered I could sing and they made me sing on stage year after year and I won there too. A friend discovered I could compere like no one can... and he pushed me into compering and I did excel. I never thought I wud ever be a good manager but then they made me the President of the Technical Fest and I did it. Again, I never thought I wud clear my first job exam but Inder did. She pushed me to for it and I did it. In my first job at Satyam, I never thought I cud be an excellent performer but my manager believed in me and I did it. While healing from a long sickness, I never thought I wud be able to stand up and make it but my mother believed it. And I made it. When I gave my intw for the world's biggest MNC, I did not believe I wud make it but my dad did and I made it... ;) All this makes me think, I only acted the way I cud when put in a situation, just to survive and I ask myself "Why the hell I did not know that I cud do all these things?", "Why its always others find it for me?", "Why don't I know myself so well like others do?" I mean why is it always that someone else realizes the talent in us and helps us bring it forward, why can't we just... you know... be the first person to know that?? CONFUSING!! But one thing is clear, I need to realize my potential and work towards it... today, I made a list of things I think I can do and things I think I can't do and then am gonna do everything that I think I can't do....one by one and see if I still can't do them. ;) The more people push me down, the more I get motivated to prove them wrong and today, I have decided am gonna do that this year for sure.Although I don't love what I do to earn for my bills but then, my funda is - lets do it with enthusiasm if you anyways have to do it. One thing is for sure, I have been under-estimating myself a lot all these years, its high time I get up and tell myself that its not only Survival Instinct that I have, but I have the capability to excel. I am not over-confident but I have to be confident for sure.... Today marks a new beginning for me in a new way... Lets do things you think you can't do and see the pleasure and sense of satisfaction it brings... Come on! I thought I wud never be able to sail but I did with the whales jumping here n there in Pacific Ocean... haha... I thought I wud never take escalators, I did. I thought I will jump off a plane, I did not...hehe.. I think as soon as we start overpowering the state of mind which says, "I can't do it" and replace it with "I can do it"....everything falls into place. YOU CAN DO IT, IF ONLY YOU THINK YOU CAN!! is the mantra... The era of under-estimating myself ends right here, right now. Time to gear up and shout it out aloud: "Here I come and I am nothing but the best, so people watch out". lol ;)

To put it in the best manner as Mountain Dew guys keep rubbing it on us with the punch-line :

DARR KE AAGEY, JEET HAIN!! ;)

P.S. I love PMS, it makes you think, think and think....wow!

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Rules : Band Bajaane ka superhit formula :P

As I usually begin my posts with -- a lot has been happening all these days.. I begin this one too with the same :D

First and foremost thing is that my ever so calm and shaant Mom came up with a list of rules that she presumed will turn her KOMOLIKA isshtyle daughter toTULSI-PARVATI isshtyle ones. Khe khe...

I found them all amusing so here I share them with my own special tadka and my masaaledar take on them. :) :)

RULE 1 : You MUST in all scenarios follow the stated rules else you can face eviction from the house.*I shivered thinking about no increment policy at work place and soaring rents*

RULE 2 : You should get up at 5 am every day excluding Sundays, although if you do get up at 5 on Sundays you can escape the constant bickering about your weight and marriage. I was like, Mom but that's mid-nite.

RULE 3 : Getting up at 5 am is not enough, so you should wear your running shoes and venture out in the Dilli ki Sardi. I looked at mom and had that "What are you talking about??" - look. LOL!! and the kinda looks I got in return, can't mention.

RULE 4 : Now walking is not enuff so you should come back and do some jumping here and there , a lil twist, a lil Yoga coz weightloss does not come easy.I was like, " Mom, are you sure I am you real daughter??"

RULE 5 : Now if all the other rules were not enuff to drive me to the heights of madness. Hear this one out : You should take bath every morning after your blah blah torturous regime *exercise* in the dead cold :| :| .I faked a fainting spell when I heard that one.

RULE 6 : You should in all scenarios cook your own breakfast and if possible cook for everyone else. I was like - Ahem! Ahem! Bring it on, Mom.

RULE 7 : You should contribute in house-work time and again. I looked at her with surprise written all over my face and I said "But Maa, I always help, you dont need to make it a rule. Anyways, I don't Work FROM Home, I kinda Work FOR Home" and she gave me the silent waala look.:P :P

RULE 8 : YOU SHOULD ALWAYS BE FOUND DOING THINGS THAT MEAN - YOU ARE WORKING TOWARDS WEIGHT-LOSS. *yawns*

RULE 9 : You should not be caught eating Bhujia or any other thing that you like and that tastes good. I was like "Yeah! Mom. I know. It is confirmed. I am not your real daughter"

RULE 10 : You should not criticize a prospective groom just because he wears a COWBOY hat while he clicks himself in his bedroom. Fine!! I puked and Happy Singh looked at me, as if he was telling me "Gal, you are finished".

RULE 11 : You should never talk back when a relative gives you weight-loss tips. *I wanted to say something but then I was like forget it*

RULE 12 : You should never make faces when auntiji, massiji, dadiji, behanji aur whoever asks you about your marriage or recommends it. Just smile. *I stood up from the bed and I was like No No... Where is my mom??" -- "Dad where is mom??", I asked.

RULE 13 : You should never crack jokes like - I love babies, I always wanted to have them but mom said, u shud get married first. Such jokes are not good for
your reputation and prospective marriage proposals. I was like now she, who looks like mom, hates my jokes.

RULE 14 : You should wear formals even if you work from home and get your eyebrows n waxing sessions done every 30 days. I imagined myself shouting and screaming for life. :( :(

RULE 15 : You should act all coy, calm and sophisticated. You should never be caught using the F word, Saala and By gawd band baja gaya :| :|. I said" By gawd maa, mera toh band hi bajaa diya aapney".

Well, I could not afford to hear anymore rules, so I said... Mom watever you like, I'll do. In my mind " Bas! Bas! Bas! Ab aur nahi sahaa jaata" :P

I am still searching for the person who prepared this whole act for mom. Coz MY mom is so calm, peaceful and all she does is blame God :P "Rabb main aisa ki kitta ki eho jayee kudi ditti mainnu" LOL!!

I think the Pados waali Aunty has done it all... Will have to bhadkaaofy her son against marriage now :P :P

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Satyam, This onez for you.

I promised Anwesa on her blog that my next post would be the TAG she passed on but I could not help writing this one. My apologies for that. Past few days have been negativity personified yet I always saw the positives there, as most of you know, I can't help but be positive. :) We all know about Satyam and I would not go bashing and thrashing Raju coz I know the media is doing that and somewhere deep down almost 70% of the nation is doing that... I have worked with this organization for 2 years and left it a couple of years back. For me it has been the most wonderful place I have ever worked at. I took my baby-steps there, I learnt to be a smart techie, a good manager and altogether a good human being. When I worked there, people gave me more respect than ever. Satyam was more of a TEMPLE in Hyderabad when I worked there and I am not exaggerating, nopes...I am not. You'd go anywhere in hyderabad and they'll treat you with respect and warmth coz you belong to Satyam. I have seen Satyam grow (may be it was all fake) but I saw it grow. Satyam was the first one to launch a EMR service in Hyderabad... We had their ambulances and Emergency response team helping people in times of crisis. I was proud to be associated with them. Satyam has also helped in social causes the major being AIDS Awareness, I have walked for AIDS, I have worked with volunteers helping rurals and urbans so they prevent this disastorous syndrome. Satyam has done a lot for people in Andhra and everywhere else as much as they could. Employees taught street kids, rehabilitated them. Altogether, Satyam Foundation did a lot for the society throught is employees and people associated with it. I still remember when I used to walk into a shop heading straight from office wearing my badge, people would say,"Ah! you are from Satyam. Wow!". My most favourite boss belongs to Satyam. He taught me how to be humble even when you are as great as him. He taught me to be human enuff even when you are managing things in the worst of times. Giri Sir has been my inspiration for life. He is a father figure and I'll always stand by him. In total, Satyam made me a better person and made me realize my dreams... dreams of owning some material things as well as confidence of my parents in me. The organization that stood by me in my bad times, I would want to stand by it, in its bad times. I want to let all the people I know in Satyam know that its not their fault at all and I stand by them. :) I know it may not make a difference to what they are going through but still it is always good to know that there is someone who stands by you and who'll try to help you out some way or the another. I have some wonderful set of people there and I am glad I worked with them. I want to thank Satyam for all it has given me and I know most of the employees felt the same until Jan 7(maybe). I hope and truly wish that everyone in Satyam works together to come out of it and create an example for everyone to follow. I know they need cash, I know they have lost it all but then as I put it on my blog: "WHEN YOU HIT ROCK BOTTOM, THE ONLY WAY IS UP" Pic : http://www1.istockphoto.com

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Ek Aur Khoobsurat Saal Zindagi Ka :)

2009 is IN and 2008 made a graceful exit. Happy New Year, everyone. There were no specific celebrations at home. Last year Dec 31st was different,we had a house party, all frenz came in. They got drunk, high and puked almost everywhere in the house. :) Mom warned us against such parties in future. She lost all her good furnishing stuff then. Guys puked on quilts, blankets, pillows, almost everywhere...lol This year we planned a small get-together but my best friend's husband(also my friend) played a spoilsport and we had to cancel it all. I saw some TV, we all had a family dinner and then I slept by the time smses started pouring in. One thing I made sure this Dec 31st was to thank everyone who made it special for me thru a personalized sms. I think everyone loves to receive/read an sms that is especially meant for them and is not some forwarded sms.

I sent ecards to my old friends. It is good in a way, coz generally the email remains the same even if the phone numbers change so one can communicate better. Some of them responded with a thank you while others did not see them at all. I am sure they are still in vacation mood. Jan 1, our housemaid went on a undeclared leave and I had to do the dishes and cleaning as Mom is not well. She can hardly stand for more than 15 mins as there is some joint issue she is being treated for. Damn! its bad coz Mom lost almost 9 kgs through walking and exercise and now she is not able to go for her most-loved walks. I am sure she will be fine with some good physiotherapy aur baaki MAIN HOON NAA!! It is a superstition that you spend whole year doing things you do on first day of the year...hahaha...I hope it does not apply to me in this case though... I have had enuff of cleaning stuff. :) I was working on Jan 1 for my organization and I wish to be lucky enuff to have this job for the rest of the year. I see that I have no trng schedules or project committments after February. It is not scary but still a bit alarming as nothing new is coming in but I am optimistic, there will be work for everyone in the team. My ratings are due for this year and I have a call this friday. I know they are not going to be good this year as I was down with typhoid but I am glad that whatever work I did, I got good feedback for that. Hope it helps. I have no high expectations though. I know I have not been an excellent performer this year coz we did not have much work coming in but all that I did, I did with full honesty and conviction. Rest, we will see. :) Uhuh!! I am waiting for some of my friends to come back from their vacations so we can talk abt many things. BTW, for my resolution, I blew my plug yesterday and I did shout but there is a good thing : I did not carry it for too long in my mind, I simply cut short the conversation, made peace with the person & myself and I told him "See, we are diff people and we tend to fight. Please don't instigate me with the shitty stuff u say abt me else I will react and I dont want to. I want us to be happy and pally as we are". It WORKED :) I know now that sooner I will overcome even the reactive part of it. Optimism.... aha! Thats how it has been... BTW, we had some really interesting visitors at home this weekend and let me talk abt them in the coming post. Have fun... Badi thand hain rabba!! And before I get too lazy to type or you know my fingers almost freeze, Thanks a lot to all of you for being a part of my life in your own special way. Pic : http://www.ilkeryoldas.com/happy-new-year-wallpaper.jpg

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