Kitni Baatein Hain, Kehna Chahoon Main.

Thanks a lot for your prayers for I's dad. I am sure, the BIG guy up there will listen to us and make some ammends there. Life is pretty busy these days. I am shuffling between work,home and sickness. Seems the fever is taking too long again.The last time it stuck around after typhoid, I got rid of it when the ENT person gave me meds for allergy. My physician asked me to wait for 2 more days and then they will run blood tests for all sorts of diseases(some of the names are really scary). I am so sick of these pathos sucking my blood out...lol Meanwhile I realized I have a lot to share apart from the usual boring sickness stuff: 1. First of all, long time I have talked to Raka, she is my sweetest pal and I could not even find time to chat or talk to her. I miss her a lot but then amidst all the nuisance, I make sure I read her. I so very wanted to be there with her, sharing and predicting the next part of the story she is writing. It is done now, though. So no matter what you are always on my mind, gal. 2. I missed the wonderful posts each one of you write. I mean, I can relate to each one of you through posts. I know that when it comes from Abhishek, it wud be full of bindaas-giri, when it will be from Zirelda, it wud be more personal...and just like that. I missed and am missing all that fun coz after all the work and fuss, I get so tired that I pop the pills doc gave me to shoo fever away and I sleep. 3. I have my MBA exams coming up starting Feb and ending at the end of March. Trust me! I have not read a single chapter as yet. I donno how I'll pass them. 4. I have back to back trngs to deliver starting Feb 2 and ending in March. Too much pressure. Am definitely going to fail in my exams. :) This time, I'll also be delivering classes for Germans. I am not sure what kinda people they are. Will have to read up about them before the class. God help my vocal chords!! 5. Ankit-Arpit celebrated their bday on JAn 28 and I missed on posting something abt them. They are my twin brothers. :) 6. Femme Fatale is happening and I am not.. ;) 7. I am sick of being sick. :P and so is everyone around me...hehe...They are sick of hearing that I am sick. Damn! too much SICKness in this pointer. :D 8. I am not able to resume my exercise but THANK GOD!! I have not gained even an ounce so far. 9. I am going to read all your blogs this weekend for sure else I feel too out of touch. 10. Mom and Sunny made a video where they interviewed me about the veggies I eat and sadly I realized I named - Potatoes,Tomatoes and Onion as the main ones on my list....hahaha and they were hilariously shocked. I need to start eating greenies now.Uhuh! This reminds me, Mom cooked Spinach with Ghodey waali daal( I mean Chanaa Dal) and I had to eat it...OMG. 11. I am made to eat Amla every morning now and it is too sour, I wonder if my mom thinks that I'll die of sickness someday....lolWhat's next? MILK? Nooooo.... 12. Happy and Rustam fought and made up, but Rustam (the german shephered) beats the hell out of Happy Singh(the small spitz) everyday, so no matter how TIDE-jaisa white Happy is in the mrng, he becomes a yellow yello dirty fellow by nite...hahaha 13. My fone has gone bad and am using Baba Adam ke Zamaaney ka mobile fone these days and its too tuff to operate it. 14. Office mein sabki haalat kharaab ki bhaiya ab recession mein kahin naukri naa chali jaaye...roz calls and roz fighting :D 15. I secretly want that nothing comes in my blood-tests except that I am allergic coz I don't want to pop more pills... AB BAS!! Baaki, life hain... nautanki toh hogi hi...toh jab tak hain, mast hi jeeyengey... dekhein kya bigadta hain ;) And please don't drop me sad-sad messages in comments, I am fine, samjhey!...its just that...may be the allergy I had few months back is back. Tussi fikar naa karo, Punjabi hun, dekh loongi iss fever ko bhi... (dont you worry) Toh tension nahi leney ka... Mast Jeeney ka... ;) Pics : http://blufiles.storage.live.com/y1pFVmig3k601PCZUHM3KXrFBqqb6vD391A9hVkwh7oIHU5LQ7OL9czuMXVMPsLVczh

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Courage is 'HER'

My friend 'I' asked me," Why do me and you have all the problems in our lives and everyone else has a smooth go at life"? I did not know what to say, she was right when she said that coz she has seen a lot in life. It does piss you off when everyone else is having a great time while life is screwing you hard. We both have been friends for more than 7 years now and we have seen each other grow as individuals. We have had our share of downs... and yeah! not to forget the balancing ups. :) Her dad is suffering from Bone Cancer and nothing is working for him. Even the chemotherapy is not able to relieve him from the pain he goes thru everyday. Seeing your parents go thru pain is the worst that can happen to anyone. :( She is going through it for past 4 yrs almost and I have been a witness to HER pain all thru. She has been the strength and pride of her parents. To manage it all (work,home,hospitals), is not an achievable task but she does it everyday with that smile on her face which tells life,"I am not going to get tired.No, I will not give it up".Full of life, is how I remember her and this is how I relate to her. A beautiful person with an amazing sense of humor is a rare find and she is just that. I remember how we both used to walk on the hostel terrace every nite after dinner under the starry sky and dream of a great future for each other. We both dreamt of making our parents proud and doing something so when we grow old and look back, we wud not regret the life we lived. Jokes,Masti, Chotey-Motey Jhagdey aur Khatti-Meethi baatein, we had an amazing bond and now, when I see her go thru all the pain, I just want to give her a warm hug and tell her,"Oye! Sardarni, Main hoon naa yaar, Tu fikar naa kari...Aiss mushkil nu vi asi chhadaangey nahi, aidee vi kamar tod deyangey..."(Oye! I am always there for you. Lets break the spine of this problem too and move on). I wish I cud make it all vanish for her so she could smile the way she did earlier, so she cud dream again, so she cud live life the way she wanted to.... When I look at her, I feel ashamed of all those people who tell me that life is a pain and blah blah... coz not able to look good, not able to find a boyfriend, not able to be famous, not able to score marks etc are not at all problems worthy enough to be losing hope for....if you look at her. I salute her for her spirit for living it up even when life is messing it up for her. SHE is what I call a brave woman, a woman of substance...Braving all odds, she is facing life and fighting a new battle everyday... She does not even know that I blog so shez not going to read this one ever and good that she will not, coz it wud embarass me. Some friendships are such, where you don't express but you still love each other, where you don't voice it but you still stand by each other... We share such a bond... Today, thru this piece of writing I just want to share what comes to my mind every nite when I pray for her dad in my night prayers.. I go thru all these thoughts every nite almost.... But,the more I know of her... I tell myself...."No I will try not to crib anymore...Life is beautiful... Yeah it is.. Despite all its lows,it is good enuff to live and smile thru." We should consider ourselves blessed for all that we have. I request you all to pray for her dad... I truly believe Prayers can do what Science cannot.

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Thoda sa kuch mujhey bhi kehna toh hain....

I always tell myself -- "Yes, I will reply to all the comments on the blog" but I don't and frankly, I really want to, but I don't. Don't know why? Ohkay! hit me for tht.
Anyways, this is a weird and un-usual post...quiet like me.. may be...badi saari baatein hain waisey...
- I have a new baby sister now (my massi gave birth to the li'l angel on 26th Jan)-- we have not thought of a name yet but she is popular by the name of Khushi, as of now ;) and that's Khushi in the picture for everyone wanted to see her.

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PARADISE LOST

'Shock' and 'Anger' brings me back to the blog-world. I never thought I wud come back to the blog like this but I could not help it. The news of the assault of women at Amnesia- a pub in Mangalore has shocked me. I know I live in a country where women are treated like shit and they are meant to be raped,molested and exploited. Oh! how did I forget it? Why this shock?? I donno. May be, I expected things to improve after what happened outside JW Marriot in Mumbai. I thought such things will not happen again, I was so wrong. Damn! How did I forget that I have some self-appointed moral police telling women what to wear, how to behave, when to smile, what to speak, how to breathe...?? BULLSHIT!! I donno how to put my emotions in words. I am simply pissed off with that Bloddy Asshole Shetty who is giving shameless interviews on news channels advocating his right to stop women from boozing and appealing to mothers and parents to stop their daughters from going to pubs and discotheques. Damn you bloody bastard!! You first get your act in place... Asshole... Who are you to tell someone what to do and what not to do?? Bloody frustrated soul, he made people molest women on the pretext of morally policing them. I hate to live in such a world. You ask me if I should try changing it... Damn! what shud I do? Kill these men?? Haan! All I can promise myself is that I will make sure that if I ever have a son and then I will teach him to be a responsible human being who understands that women are not meant to be treated like shit... treated the way they are treated now and then in my beautiful country, I wish I was proud of... I mean, how can you ever tell a woman not to booze or dance or enjoy... Does not she have the right to live it up like men do?? I myself am not into alcohol not coz I think it is down-market for a woman to do so...Nopes... Its only coz I personally feel it is something which will not affect me positively... Thats it... What do I say now?? I am facing this loss of words... I am angry, disappointed, broken and hurt yet again... Will this country ever stop hurting women... Will they ever realise that women have a right to live too... Will they ever let us women breathe in the air of freedom?? Pics : http://s3.causes.com/photos/lK/z6/AF/rm/RE/mY/dTnJ.jpg

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For those who missed me and who did not ;)

"Why do weird Viruses always find you?", my doctor smiled at me. I simply shrugged. I am also trying to find this answer ;) I donno why these viruses catch me all the time. Mom says,"Nazar Lag Gayi Meri Kudi Ko, Saara Din Khee Khee Karti Hain".... Relatives say,"Aapki beti ki immunity down ho gayi hain".... Bhai-log say, "Saara Din Ghar Mein Rahegi Toh Yehi Hoga"... I say," Arey yaar, Beemar hun... thoda discount do...apney fundey mat lagaao...". Aajkal aadmi chain se beemar bhi nahi padd sakta...hehe... usmein bhi logic aur fundey dhoondney padtey hain... :) Anyways, I got rashes all over my body and I looked so ugly that mom covered the mirrors in my room...I donno why they happened...doc told me its coz of some virus and the fever was pretty high too.Heavy dosage of Antibiotics and anti-allergics grounded me big time and I was bed-ridden all the time. Today is a bit better, my throat hurts...but am still recovering... If you guys did miss me, achcha hain...(good) and if you did not, aur abhi achcha hain....hehehe (much better) I have not read any of ur blogs as I was not allowed to be in touch with technology for few days and also, Happy Singh was not allowed to come near me. :( Happy Singh has now sneaked into my room and sitting by my side while am writing this.. ;) I missed saying Good Morning to him all these days... :D Chalo ji, me going back to take rest... coz my boss has already prepared work-plan for me as soon as I recover...so I better recover soon else I will be branded as a SICK-personality in my team...lol.. Tussi sab, take care... teh mast raho aur khul ke jeeyo yaar!! Ek hi Life hain.... (Live it up coz therez just one life to live... take care) and Thanks a lot for your wishes... am sure yeh tum sab ka hi asar hain... rabb ji is a bit kind to me this time :) Pic : http://imagecache2.allposters.com/images/pic/ATA/24337BP~Looney-Tunes-Tweety-Pie-Posters.jpg

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Because Ramit said so....

Yes. I am not fond of doing tags but then am pretty fond of Ramit ;) So this one is for him. I started off with a "Yeah! I need to do it feeling" but enjoyed answering it all thru.
Ramit, neither I have a sexy secretary nor a bald head to boast about, but still have tried :D :D
1. What is your current obsession?
The Armani watch gifted by Bhai

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10 Great Things About Being Sick

Khaali Dimaag, Shaitaan Ka Ghar - Mummy kehti hain :)
("Idle minds are always destructive"- Mom says so)
So I used my not-so-khaali yet khaali dimaag(mind) and I found being sick is a blessing in disguise. Ask me why? ;)
1. Well, you can listen to your favourite music without feeling guilty and without anyone telling you, Awaaz Kamm Karo(keep the volume low)... coz then you can always make a sorry face and look at the other person in a way to make him/her feel guilty for shouting at a sick person...hehe....haan haan imagine kar rahey hogey mujhey... koi nahi ;)

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Height of Love

Pata hain kya? I have done something crazy today....
I am not well, down with fever :( I am reading all your blogs par not feeling like writing anything on my own. But somehow I stumbled over a blog post tht talked abt a short-story writing competition. Ab main koi itni gyaani toh hun nahi... still I thought why not give it a shot...after all bed par rest kar kar key bhi main bore ho gayi... and then people shud also suffer a bit after reading what I write naa...

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Let's screw life... ;)

I donno if I spent my last year sleepwalking or what, but then a lot happened that affected me in good and bad. The eye-opener came up today when I discussed everything with my managers for my performance rating. I got what I expected coz this time I did not expect to be among the top-contributors.I am one of those persons who believe that we can lie to the whole world, give them excuses but we can never lie to ourselves. I cannot lie to my ownself ever. Last year was full of complications in terms of my professional life, I was badly pulled into a political mud-fight in office during the start of 2008 and I knew right there that some people will definitely make sure that I go down deep into the dungeon and they did. I had to lose it all and I left my team coz I had no choice but to move on. I joined a new team and there was no good work there and soon I fell sick and typhoid clung to me so hard that it almost shook up all the foundations. Finally, I was called back to my ex-team and there were diff ground-rules that were defined this time and I had to abide by them to hold myself together in the team. I did. I lost the motivation factor but I kept smiling thru what I hated to do. :) I was always adamant that I did not want to give trainings but I did. I started giving Product trngs and soon, I got appreciations coming from every nook and corner. Okay, I did it but I did not love it. Today my managers told me, "Harshita, your biggest strength is your communication, they way you share what you know and you talk to people, you win them over and we wanted to exploit that and that is the reason that you have been giving trainings"... Soon after that, I asked myself, "Why did not I realize my worth, dammit?" Why do we never realize our own talents and strengths??...damn! Altleast I never do. My journey has been similar always, right from my skool days. My teachers discovered that I cud dance and made me dance in a skool festival. Another teacher discovered I could be a good speaker and she pushed me into public speaking in English, later a hindi teacher realized I cud do justice to Hindi too and I was the lead representative everywhere from my skool for Hindi Public Speaking events...These teachers made me believe I could do it and I kept doing it, winning and leading. I never realized I was good enough. After school, in college, my seniors discovered I could sing "My heart will go on" on stage when Celine was not available. :) I did.They discovered I could sing and they made me sing on stage year after year and I won there too. A friend discovered I could compere like no one can... and he pushed me into compering and I did excel. I never thought I wud ever be a good manager but then they made me the President of the Technical Fest and I did it. Again, I never thought I wud clear my first job exam but Inder did. She pushed me to for it and I did it. In my first job at Satyam, I never thought I cud be an excellent performer but my manager believed in me and I did it. While healing from a long sickness, I never thought I wud be able to stand up and make it but my mother believed it. And I made it. When I gave my intw for the world's biggest MNC, I did not believe I wud make it but my dad did and I made it... ;) All this makes me think, I only acted the way I cud when put in a situation, just to survive and I ask myself "Why the hell I did not know that I cud do all these things?", "Why its always others find it for me?", "Why don't I know myself so well like others do?" I mean why is it always that someone else realizes the talent in us and helps us bring it forward, why can't we just... you know... be the first person to know that?? CONFUSING!! But one thing is clear, I need to realize my potential and work towards it... today, I made a list of things I think I can do and things I think I can't do and then am gonna do everything that I think I can't do....one by one and see if I still can't do them. ;) The more people push me down, the more I get motivated to prove them wrong and today, I have decided am gonna do that this year for sure.Although I don't love what I do to earn for my bills but then, my funda is - lets do it with enthusiasm if you anyways have to do it. One thing is for sure, I have been under-estimating myself a lot all these years, its high time I get up and tell myself that its not only Survival Instinct that I have, but I have the capability to excel. I am not over-confident but I have to be confident for sure.... Today marks a new beginning for me in a new way... Lets do things you think you can't do and see the pleasure and sense of satisfaction it brings... Come on! I thought I wud never be able to sail but I did with the whales jumping here n there in Pacific Ocean... haha... I thought I wud never take escalators, I did. I thought I will jump off a plane, I did not...hehe.. I think as soon as we start overpowering the state of mind which says, "I can't do it" and replace it with "I can do it"....everything falls into place. YOU CAN DO IT, IF ONLY YOU THINK YOU CAN!! is the mantra... The era of under-estimating myself ends right here, right now. Time to gear up and shout it out aloud: "Here I come and I am nothing but the best, so people watch out". lol ;) To put it in the best manner as Mountain Dew guys keep rubbing it on us with the punch-line :

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Rules : Band Bajaane ka superhit formula :P

As I usually begin my posts with -- a lot has been happening all these days.. I begin this one too with the same :D
First and foremost thing is that my ever so calm and shaant Mom came up with a list of rules that she presumed will turn her KOMOLIKA isshtyle daughter toTULSI-PARVATI isshtyle ones. Khe khe...
I found them all amusing so here I share them with my own special tadka and my masaaledar take on them. :) :)

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Satyam, This onez for you.

I promised Anwesa on her blog that my next post would be the TAG she passed on but I could not help writing this one. My apologies for that. Past few days have been negativity personified yet I always saw the positives there, as most of you know, I can't help but be positive. :) We all know about Satyam and I would not go bashing and thrashing Raju coz I know the media is doing that and somewhere deep down almost 70% of the nation is doing that... I have worked with this organization for 2 years and left it a couple of years back. For me it has been the most wonderful place I have ever worked at. I took my baby-steps there, I learnt to be a smart techie, a good manager and altogether a good human being. When I worked there, people gave me more respect than ever. Satyam was more of a TEMPLE in Hyderabad when I worked there and I am not exaggerating, nopes...I am not. You'd go anywhere in hyderabad and they'll treat you with respect and warmth coz you belong to Satyam. I have seen Satyam grow (may be it was all fake) but I saw it grow. Satyam was the first one to launch a EMR service in Hyderabad... We had their ambulances and Emergency response team helping people in times of crisis. I was proud to be associated with them. Satyam has also helped in social causes the major being AIDS Awareness, I have walked for AIDS, I have worked with volunteers helping rurals and urbans so they prevent this disastorous syndrome. Satyam has done a lot for people in Andhra and everywhere else as much as they could. Employees taught street kids, rehabilitated them. Altogether, Satyam Foundation did a lot for the society throught is employees and people associated with it. I still remember when I used to walk into a shop heading straight from office wearing my badge, people would say,"Ah! you are from Satyam. Wow!". My most favourite boss belongs to Satyam. He taught me how to be humble even when you are as great as him. He taught me to be human enuff even when you are managing things in the worst of times. Giri Sir has been my inspiration for life. He is a father figure and I'll always stand by him. In total, Satyam made me a better person and made me realize my dreams... dreams of owning some material things as well as confidence of my parents in me. The organization that stood by me in my bad times, I would want to stand by it, in its bad times. I want to let all the people I know in Satyam know that its not their fault at all and I stand by them. :) I know it may not make a difference to what they are going through but still it is always good to know that there is someone who stands by you and who'll try to help you out some way or the another. I have some wonderful set of people there and I am glad I worked with them. I want to thank Satyam for all it has given me and I know most of the employees felt the same until Jan 7(maybe). I hope and truly wish that everyone in Satyam works together to come out of it and create an example for everyone to follow. I know they need cash, I know they have lost it all but then as I put it on my blog: "WHEN YOU HIT ROCK BOTTOM, THE ONLY WAY IS UP" Pic : http://www1.istockphoto.com

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Shall we go for a drink ??

To begin with, this is not my original piece of work. Thanks to the mailer Harita sent me.
I so loved this, socha share kartey hain... aur apni hasi ko thoda baant letey hain... theek hain hindi nahi aati (donno Hindi)... koi nahi(don worry)... I'll translate : I thought why not share this mail and share my smile with you too.

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Ek Aur Khoobsurat Saal Zindagi Ka :)

2009 is IN and 2008 made a graceful exit. Happy New Year, everyone. There were no specific celebrations at home. Last year Dec 31st was different,we had a house party, all frenz came in. They got drunk, high and puked almost everywhere in the house. :) Mom warned us against such parties in future. She lost all her good furnishing stuff then. Guys puked on quilts, blankets, pillows, almost everywhere...lol This year we planned a small get-together but my best friend's husband(also my friend) played a spoilsport and we had to cancel it all. I saw some TV, we all had a family dinner and then I slept by the time smses started pouring in. One thing I made sure this Dec 31st was to thank everyone who made it special for me thru a personalized sms. I think everyone loves to receive/read an sms that is especially meant for them and is not some forwarded sms.

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