UK Diaries : Nov 22 - Stretching the matter...confusion and conversations

Okay! I have informed my manager and he called me up. I told him I don't intend to cause any harm to the person's reputation or his job. So I asked him to promise me that he will make sure that it does not get THAT escalated. I cannot forgive myself now somewhere deep inside for taking it this far, not cause I am scared. Just becoz I don't want things to get too bad for him. I donno if my manager thinks it has a sexual angle coz he is forcing me again and again to talk to some female managers so I can comfortably talk. What does he mean by that? I already told him what I had to...Still... I am so confused right now... I donno what to do... I told him I dont want to talk abt it again and again... here I am telling my story to so many people to let the message reach the right person... huh! Seriously, somewhere deep down I am feeling, I shud have just not taken it forward... Why do we have a tendency to feel guilty when our actions hurt someone who has hurt us?? :( I dont understand this side of me.. .My head says... he deserves it.. .My heart says.. he is human after all.. Let it be... I feel so caught up in this mess... confrontations..complaints... escalations... is not just ME... But I am left with no choice but to go ahead with it...coz turning back is like eating ur own words... and I cant do that... I wish things get fine.. I wish this wud have never happened... I had my *special* conversation with God and I prayed that things get fine... tomorrow is another day... god knws.. wat's in store... Thanks a lot everyone for helping me out with this.. .I got courage to talk abt it with my seniors only coz I knew that so many people(YOU) believe in me... Thanks a lot :) *may sound cheesy, but it did help*... I know am not posting interesting stuff... but then.. bad times need their share of limeligh too... :D :D... Let's hope things get better... :) Love u ppl.